Thursday, December 29, 2005

Cashier Labour~

Wah sai~ i've nv stand so long without sitting down since bmt... but it wasn't even tat tiring in bmt compare to wat i've gone through last nite :P or maybe it's just tat i'm getting weak, n i tink there's some problems with my back bone...

Went to work as cashier labour at Zouk last nite... yup u heard me, but i tink some of my frenz wont believe me, cause i dont really like to go crowded places especially clubbing etc :P... but in need of cash n i can't find a full time job till FEB due to the NTUC overnite watch i promised to do till end of JAN... so ytd i worked from 9pm till every party animal left, which was abt 5am this morning.... got paid straight away after finishing a day's work... got abt $52 in one nite... quite ok although gotta stand all the way, with breaks in between, but at least gotta see lots n lots of pretty gals :P hahaha... n they even got buses to send their workers back to their homes...

Reached home abt 5.45am, mom was already awake... she initially objected me from going to work at Zouk... cause she's scare of the the way ppl behave at clubs, scared tat i might go astray... but i insisted in doing it n went anyway... end up she oso gave up n trusted tat i know wat i'm doing... anyway i'm already 23 if i were to go astray i might have already have done so long ago hehehe :P but i oso felt rather bad making my mom worry sick abt me...

And my god i almost struck 4D ytd... 3rd prize some more... the no 7354 just appeared in my mind 2days ago so i went to buy 4D ytd... but the 3rd prize no was 3547... hai~ just my luck... maybe i'm not entirely sincere when i prayed to "Ti Gong"... or maybe he got no internet n doesn't understand the words i typed in my previous post :P hahaha nvm just gotta wait n see if sometingy might happen in 2nite's TOTO :P

Now i only got 2 tingys to do... wait for 2 phone calls... one from Zouk's Andy to confirm wif me the next date i would be working... the other is from HP, 2day is the 3rd working day n i've yet to receive any calls or wat so ever from them abt collecting my free Desktop PC after re-contracting with starhub... hai~ hope 2day they call...

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Router No More~

Finally after more than a year... i've sold my Linksys wireless-B broadband router... i've put the auction up on ebay n hardwarezone for a week... at last a guy emailed me wanting to buy it from me for $45... i thgt i could sell it for $60... but nobody wants it... cause it's considered an old model already... they r selling wireless-G out in the market.... but mine is still in super condition :P cause i didnt open the box after i got it back from challenger, reason is i didnt haf a use for it... n got it free when i signed up from starhub...

anyway, went down to do the transaction for this guy... i didnt realised till i saw him in person, he's a foreigner but working n living in sg i suppose... i sold him less than the price i wanted cause i thgt not much ppl would want this model nowadays... since he wanted it n $45 is considered quite a gd offer for me already... i agreed to sell it to him...

at least now i got enough $$ to last me abt 2-3 more weeks :P but already spent $10 on ez-link card n $5 on food 2day... luckily mom helped me to buy my bread n ham... so i can spend less these week n keep it for the next...

hehehe i find it crazy... but i had an urge to buy 4D n TOTO this week... maybe cause of the financial crisis... i know buying lottery is kinda waste of $$, since i'm trying to save up... but not much harm would be done when i'm buying it once in a blue moon :P

"Ti Gong Boh Bi Wa Dio Bie Bio, TOTO Lu Geng Hor... Dio Liao Buay Sio De, Sio Guay Ga Le Bai" :)

Monday, December 26, 2005

What is Happiness?

not sure why n oso dont even know when it started, but nowadays watever i do, i'm always feeling unhappy... dont really know wats wrong with me either... maybe i've been tinking too much abt money matters... it's been really restricting my everday life... watever i do, eat, drink etc, even a step out of the house, i'm restricting myself from taking bus, i dont mind tat though, cause its a form of exercise for me...

but wherever i go, i cant really do anytingy... cause every single tingy out there requires $$... maybe till i get a job n a stable income... then maybe my happiness would come back to me...

ytd on the way back home to bedok after a movie at TM, i started to feel sooo lost n sad in the bus... not sure why... but i was just overwhelm by the unhappiness... felt rather down... i almost wanted to drown myself in food again... luckily it was abt 11.30pm most stalls in the market were closed... so i just went 7-11 to get a drink n a sweet... then walked home from there... so tired of my life... notingy in my life would make me happy even for just one whole day... there would always be sometingy else to ruin it in the day... hai~

just watched "Love Actually" on StarMovies... there was this saying:

"Christmas is the time you spend with the ones you love."

but i guessed that i would never get to spend it with the one i loved most...

Saturday, December 24, 2005

~ORD~

Finally, after 2yrs 4months of service. I've ORD yesterday on the 23rd of Dec 2005 :P Got to see my pink IC again after these few yrs... hehe i looked like a kid in my pink IC, tink would go change my IC photo if i haf the chance :P

Now really gotta find a job soon liaoz... but earliest i could start is still after Jan, cause of the overnite part time jobby with NTUC... meantime just gotta find some part time to do...

Althgh of the financial problem i'm having this month... i just realised tat my max online's contract had expired, so i quickily called up starhub to sign up with their promotion, the max online 6500 with a desktop free... so i would be getting a new PC soon.... maybe in a couple of weeks time... cause i've already cut down on my bills with all the rewards points i got... then when i signed up for the new contract, i would only need to pay abit more than usual, maybe abt $30 more... just gotta see the next bill loh :P at least after all these yrs of saying tat i wanna get a new PC... i finally got 1... althgh it wont be the ideal PC i wanted... but it would do just fine cause it's much better than the one i'm using now...

Hai~ also had been trying to sell away my Linksys wireless-B router... but not much ppl wanna buy it leh, it's nv used before n still no one interested in it... sian~ if still no one want it then i may just haf 2 keep it back in the store room till i got the need to use it myself...

Well... no more need to go back camp or anytingy liaoz hehe so... i can continue with my diet program :P hope i could really lose till 75kg or even 70kg this year... which is one of my new yr resolutions :P

Saturday, December 17, 2005

First week after receiving my pay cut on the 10th. Spent $130 on bills, $34 on insurance, the rest r gonna be used for daily life. But it's been kinda hard since i limited myself on my weekly spendings. I did spend under the limit i set for myself, which was $15 per week, but tat prevents my from spending $$ on any other tingys. I even gotta tink twice n calculate my allowance b4 i spend $ on food n drinks.

It's been sometime since i ever enjoyed my life. Keep on living day in day out tinking abt whether to spend the $$ anot. Still gotta wait till i find a perm job b4 all this could go away. But i can't work for a perm job till FEB, cause i'll be doing a NTUC job in JAN, n it requires me to work from 10pm till next morning 8am, which means i can't do any other 8-5 jobs or shifts or any other jobs during tat period of time. All i could do now is try to find some short duration part time to cover my JAN n FEB. Cause i would only get paid for the NTUC like end of FEB. Two months without $$ to spend, gonna be hard...

People r happy when the ORD, but i'm not... cause tat marks the actual start of my life, n my current situation won't do any gd for the start of my life... just hope tat i would be enjoying my life later on, cause i'm already suffering even b4 the start of my life journey...

Saturday, December 10, 2005

My life is starting to crumble~

Thought tat my last NS pay would still be $430, but i was wrong. i just went down to pay my starhub bills n withdraw $30, checked my account... only left $173 till i ORD on x'mas eve... how am i gonna live my life after i ORD sia... if i cant get a job by tat time, then i really gotta find a job at NTUC or any fastfood restaurant 1st... tis is giving me such a headache... all these years... $$ had been giving me headaches... CB terrorists, if 911 didnt happen then my dad's business should still be successful... but now we r still struggling our lifes after declaring bankruptcy a abt 2 years back...

Now i really gotta cut down my weekly/monthly expenses... i had limited myself to abt $30 per week before i saw the pay just now... so i changed it all... limiting to just $15 per week n abt $60 per month... so now everyday i would still be feeding on bread n ham, as part of my diet... but instead of 4 slices of bread per day, now i'm just gonna take 2 slice of bread n a slice of ham, half of it in morning n the other half in the evening... just hope i wont faint :P but will still be buying apples n fish, cause just having bread would make my diet unhealthy... would still be going swimming though... at most if really cannot afford it anymore then would just stick to jogging... so all these tingys r spent at abt $15 per week... any more than tat would cause unwanted headaches again...

I've withdrawn $30 just now... cause i wanted to reward myself for awhile... i ordered KFC for my saturday meal, lunch+dinner on tat KFC i ordered... i've lost abt 9-10kgs since my diet... really gotta reward abit... but after tat really gonna go into my survival test liaoz... hai~ did i do sometingy tat bad to deserve all these? why is everytingy in my life going down n further down... wanna climb up oso hard... when every step i take there is bound to be a banana skin on the floor for me to step onto n fall further down... hai~ how can i NOT be pessismistic?

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Change of background song~

Changed the background song to this new song... by kang kang... i love this song... especially the way it's written...

Swimming Resumes~

Finally, the dead skin on my back r almost gone... left only a few spots tat i am unable to reach n scrub them off... anyway they look ok to me, so decided to go swimming today... wanted to swim yesterday, but it was getting kinda late so i just went NTUC to buy somemore hams n lettuce, i spent my last $10 on them... n spent the rest of the change on some dim-sum... hehe gotta break my fast once in awhile mah :P anyway have been maintaining my weight at 88kg... will just slowly lose the rest of the kgs from now on... :P

Anyway, actually wanted to swim this morning... wanna try how the morning pool feels like... its been a long time since i swim in the morning at bedok swimming complex... but i just cant get up this morning... the earliest i could was at 10am... but afraid tat i might get sun burnt again i waited till abt 2pm before i went out... lucky i waited... cause it started to rain at abt noon... as usual, i walked all the way to the swimming complex... its kinda a habit already... to walk to anyway as long as i'm by myself... it's already the sch holidays, luckily there wasnt much kids swimming today... but one thingy tat's starting to bug me... the couples in the pool... always talking at one corner sometimes at the end of the lanes... then gotta change direction in order not to swim into them... i know it's non of my business whether they r swimming or not in the pool... but it just makes my sick... if they wanna soak in water together... then mind as well soak at home in a bath tub... hai~ just gotta try not to be distracted by these ppl...

Dental & FFI

Went for my dental & medical appointment on moday... the dental was at Selarang Camp near CABwest, 4 of us were doing these appointments together, dennis, cher, paw n me :P... it's been years since i visited the dentist, n not been brushing my teeth regularly... so, when they checked my teeth, they found lots of decay... they were kind enough to help me fixed abt 4-5 of the decay, but they wanted me to go out n do the front 2 teeth myself... cause it's decaying too... but i didnt notice the decay... but anyway, i would be going 2 a dentist after i get my last pay this saturday, cus i'm now broke again, yup $0 in my wallet n less than $5 in my bank... so in the mean time, all i could do is just start to brush my teeth regularly n rinse with listerine...

After the dental in the morning, we waited till after lunch before going for our FFI... we did urine test, eye test, all other usual stuffs... it was kinda fast... thgt it would take the whole afternoon to do it, thgt it would be a full body check up... hahaha but its just a simple routine check... ohh yah... i finally used up all my emart credits... bought a running shoe, no.3 shoe, a swimming trunk n some socks, even spent the remaning credits on toilet rolls for the ppl in the emart... hahaha

Friday, December 02, 2005

Hai~ my PC monitor is dying... poor tingy has been with me for abt a decade already hahaha... moved with me from our 1st home in bedok to tampines... then back here to bedok again... its time i get a new set of PC... this loyal PC of mine, their parts r already out-dated :P but yet serving me well hahahaha :P no matter wat i will still continue using it, till it no longer functions... the monitor is already flickering abit... n shadows r appearing at the corners... just hope it will last till i get a job... cause my resume is still in it... if it die off now i would have to get a new one or even a 2nd-handed from cash converter, which i dont think will last long either... haha

But i cant buy a new PC yet... the earliest i could buy one would be after i get a job n receive my 2nd pay... cause my monthly expenses now is abt $500... taking tat i might get a pay of over $1000, $500 for use n the rest for the PC... so at least the 2nd pay then i could get one... maybe i would buy a monitor 1st... n the rest of it later on... cause i still gotta give allowances to my parents... well, i hope i could give them... :P

Dear monitor... please bear with me for another 3 months...

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Finally i've finish writing out my resume... but i'll only start sending them next week... cause i havent put it into softcopy... its so hard to write a resume man... dont know wat to put in it... kinda regret y i didnt do well in my O-levels... if i could pass my geography, chemistry n english at one go i could have gone into hospitality management in TP n maybe look for F&B job now... but i might not be in RSAF for my NS... hehehe so there r good n bad views to all these...

Now just hope i would get a satisfying job as an engineer in the near future... else i might go back NTUC be storeman again muahahaha :P hope i could survive for the rest of my years... should be abit more easy cause would only be supporting my parents n myself... wont be looking forward to start my own family... cause tats my fate...

Hai~ just now went bedok town park for a jog... wanna try see how's my 2.4km timing, now tat i've lost a few kgs... but then it was worst than i thgt it would be... i took 14.20mins to run the 2.4km... thgt i could be faster than tat... not sure y i'm still so slow... maybe cause of the slight up hills in the park... although they r small but the effect is too much when i'm running... hai~ still not used to running 2.4km... tried to do chin ups too... but still cant even break the zero... now stomache muscles kinda aching... think yesterday do too much push ups strained my stomache muscles hehehe :P arm oso abit aching... think i did abt 100 push ups within 2hrs... cause was doing it while playing winning eleven 9... telling myself before every match do 20 push ups n if let in one goal i would do another 10, 10 more for lost n 5 for a draw... haha i oso lost count how many matches i played...

hai~ hope my back skin would peel off faster... so i could go swimming again... started peeling off 2 days ago after i got sun burnt from the last swim... now i never go swim like beri sian... nothingy much more to do liaoz... except running... hahaha :P