SIANSATION~

Nowadays i keep waking up after 12noon... never earlier than tat :P cause i've been staying up late watching tv n playing games... really must change this habit already... else gonna be hard for me after i ORD... only 5 more weeks till i ORD... i have yet to find a job... wonder if i could find one... gonna be broke again... went swimming again today at abt 3pm... on the way there i kept thinking but my life... feel kinda worthless... so fat n not much skills... only thingy i'm good at is spending $$... hai~

Stopped by the ATM to check on my savings... not much left for me this month... abt $40 left n i haben pay my hp bill yet... althgh it's only $27... gotta wait till my last pay day... just hope i can survive after i ORD... if i can pass my ippt i would sure sign on with RSAF... but just too bad...

I wanna takes thingys easy... just wanna relax... but keep thinking abt my future makes me headache... sometimes i wonder why are all people working day and night just to make a living... then years later we just die or even just wait to die... sometimes i feel the life or an animal is better than a human...

Went to Giant Supermarket after swimming... wanted to see if the thingys there are cheaper than NTUC... hehe they're not... NTUC sells at a lower price n sometimes they got on sale items too... but the thingys nowadays are getting more n more expensive... everytime i would spend near $20 just to buy ham, bread, veggies, juices, n other essentials... think i spent nearly $100 this month in NTUC hahaha :P going on a diet could be expensive too...

Hai~ should really start writing my resume tomorrow n search for a temp part time job... it's rather boring staying home everyday... only sometimes go swimming n jogging... but nothingy much interesting to do... without $$ it's hard to find pleasure...

Wah sai~ today super tiring sia... just came home from a swim at bedok swimming complex... went there abt 1145... i walked from my house to the swimming complex... abt 30mins plus lah... nowadays i haven't been taking the bus... unless i'm going out with frenz or watever... otherwise i would just walk... even only just going 2 library to return book i oso walk there :P hehe trying 2 lose weight lah no choice... hehe then only take lift when i'm going down... coming back home i would use the stairs... this is my 1st time since i moved to this blk... tat i've used the stairs to reach my home hehehe :P been doing all these for the past 3weeks liaoz... luckily got some results ar... if not i sure cry hahaha :P work so hard but notingy in return...

Anyway... back to the pool... reach there abt 1220 liaoz... not much ppl swimming cus most of them sun tanning... really hot sia today... after few days of continuous rain... finally today the clouds gave way to the sun hehehe :P and because the weather's so hot... it makes the water in the pool feel really cold when i enter it... woo hoo almost cannot tahan...then swim 1st lap only... i find it weird... having abit of trouble controlling my breathe n movements... so i stopped n rest awhile before continuing... hehe maybe cause the water too cold... cant adapt to it tat quickily...

Hehehe n only today then i realised tat i spent abt 1hr just to finish 20 laps... how can i be tat slow sia... hahaha maybe body mass too big... then too much resistence to water... harder to move in water... LOL~ then today my eyes oso eat quite alot of "ice cream" :P saw 2 malay gals wearing bikinis sun tanning... hmm figure quite good woo :P hehehe then beri hard 2 concentrate in swimming LOL~

Ytd went jogging in bedok reservoir... was suppose to meet jianguang n jog together... but he fly me aeroplane... he did sms me saying tampines area gonna rain soon... but it was too late... i was already out of my house... n i nv bring hp along for run... so i waited there for half an hour before i start jogging myself...

It's rather windy jogging around the reservoir... should go there more often now... but one tingy bad abt it is the small stones on the pavement... they keep entering my shoes... then hard 2 run... i almost kana blisters oso... 1st time after sooo many runs at other places... almost kana blisters... now just gotta wait awhile for the leg to heal abit before starting to run again... meanwhile just gotta keep swimming... hehehe :P

Ohh yah... i ran into syed from 4B while jogging at the reservoir ytd... he just came back from work n came down for a jog... he now working for ministry of environment... tink is part time... cant remember properly... said abt $5plus per hr... quite gd job... he just ORD last month n got a job already... i still having difficulty finding one... hai~ just hope i would find one soon... time is not a luxury for me...

Recall, recall~

Hahaha... thought tat there would be a recall 2day, end up i'm just scaring myself... cause there wasn't one... but next week might be recalled... so, i stayed at home the whole 1st half of 2day... didnt even dare to go TP for a swim in the morning... scare later hp ring but i'm in the pool then die... hahaha so 2molo then go swim bah... provided i could wake up :P

Went out for movie at 5pm with weihe, his gf, junchao, jianguang n vincent at marina square... watched harry potter, show ok lah... the plot always the same... enemy only shows his face near the end of the show hahaha :P before tat we went for dinner... had fast food... hai~ i broke fast, i ate fried food for the 1st time... but lucky my weight didnt increase... man the burger we ate was damn HUGE... forgot wat the name of the restaurant was already but it's located in the 1st level near the 7-11... i ate the combo meal "famous star" it was really big sia... but quite nice... maybe becus i long time never eat fast food :P but it was really filling... tink my appetite became smaller again... last time i eat fast food i was never tat full... now just one HUGE burger is making me full... or maybe it's just becus the burger was big... hahaha :P

After the movie weihe even wanted to go bedok Blk85 for supper, but we all quite full liaoz so we scraped tat idea... n went home... on the way home tink i saw jenny, frend from TP... only knew her abit when doing fyp in the same lab... didnt say hi cause scare it's the wrong person hahaha besides me dont know her tat much...

Was quite happy 2day actually... i finally could fit into my old T-shirt again... it was a T-shirt i won from a starhub SCV contest... hehe the contest was abt italian serieA soccer... the T-shirt's size is XL... but it looks more like L on the outside... i could only fit into it when i 1st POP from Tekong... but now i can fit into it again... really beri happy loh... so i will stick to my diet for 2 more weeks... n see wat happens then :P hehe Yippee!!

Nearing the end of my 2nd week of diet plan :P quite happy loh... i finally broke the 90kg mark again haha now me weight is 89kg... didnt do much exercise this week... cause went for 2 job interviews n also the weather not beri good for outdoor exercise... rained a few times when i wanted to go run or swim... end up i didnt hehe :P but still i lost abt 2kgs this whole week... did go down to play basketball... alone lah hehe... only practised shooting for abt 30mins plus then it was gonna rain so went back home... i still suck at close range shots... 3 points still ok hehehe :P

So... abt those 2 interviews... one was on the fast food i talked abt in my previous entry in my blog... turned out they didnt call me after i told them i can only start after december n i cant work on saturdays... cause they said cannot take off on weekends... tink they feel i not right for the jobby... so didnt re-contact me...

Now the 2nd jobby... hahaha... another marketing job again!! i know myself, i'm not the kind of person suitable for marketing... need good communication skills... which i am lack of... said they would put me through courses n exams, after which then i could become sort of a "leader" for others... leading my own group of men... then only one tingy came into my mind when the interviewer told me these tingys... i'm not a leader, i'm a follower... i know myself quite well, wat i can do or wat i am incapable of... they told me to tink it through... cause they need ppl who have completed NS n will be committed... they even arranged a 2nd interview for me the next day... but i turned it down... i know i wont be gd enough to be in marketing...

Hai~ 2 interviews, 2 disappointments... i should really stick to my own diploma... should search for jobby in engineering line... instead of F&B or storeman :P hehehe... but i gotta start writing my resume before i could start looking for a job... must start 2 write tomorrow...

Today damn tired... wake up abt 9am then went down to Bedok Burger King to meet firdus to pass him back his CDs... but he fly my aeroplane... msg him n he replied he gotta work today so cant meet up... sian man waited in BK for half an hr before leaving...

Hai~ anyway... today i read the classified ads n i called up to of them... went to one of it for an interview just now in the evening... i was asked to go to shun li industrial park in kaki bukit... when i was there i cant find the lift so i took the stairs loh... dont know y leh... in bmtc can climb 4 storey now climb 5 only already breathing quite hard... should exercise more sia... hehehe anyway i'm not applying for a job in that industrial park... instead it's like their HQ or sometingy... then the job i might be doing i think is their some kinda franchise or sometingy... the name is Water-Rise Pancake Burgers... abit japanese style leh... hehe sometingy like mos burger kinda job... i havent agreed on the job yet... cause i'm still going for another interview tomorrow at APEX Tower in Tanjong Pagar... wanna see if this job is better than the fast-food job... if it is then i'll turn down the fast-food job hehe :P anyway if i were to do the fast-food job it would also be a part time for me... n furthermore they might not employ me also cause i could only work after i ORD... but if they do then i could at least have a stable income even after i ORD... hey any job is better than no job...

Anyway the second job interview i'm going tomorrow has got various positions available... so they asked me to go down for an interview... so lets see wat happens tomorrow... if worst comes to worst both jobs dont want me then just gotta keep searching... hehehe :P hai~ ended up today i didnt exercise... only compensated by walking home n climbing up stairs even when my back hurts...

Sleepy Saturday~

I practically slept for almost the entire Saturday... i was awake at abt 9am this morning, i got up just to have my sandwich breakfast then when back to play my Lazio game on cm01-02... but i guess i was too tired... cus ytd came home at abt 2am, went out ytd with my frenz to party world ktv in orchard... quite some time nv go ktv liaoz... cus of insufficient income hahaha :P

Anyway, so i laid on my bed which was just infront of my pc... i purposely position my bed so it's now a bed for sleeping n a "sofa" for my table hahaha wat a life :P i kept waking up n falling back to sleep... then was like tillabt 4pm then i was completely awake again... i weight myself... my weight didnt go down 2day cause i never output hehe... so was thinking whether to go for a swim at TP or bedok swimming complex... or go for a run in bedok town park... then i realise i dont have 2 spend a single cent if i go for a run... so i when at abt 5pm...

I ran non-stop... but was kinda slow towards the end... was keep telling myself i must not stop no matter wat... not beri sure how long i took to complete the round... but i finished the run in 7 songs... i was listening to mp3 while running :P maybe taking each song for abt 4mins average... then it should be around 28mins for me to finish the round... then i came back to have my apple dinner... didnt want to eat sandwich this evening... cus i didnt output much... so i just had 2 apples... hehehe :P

Well, it's coming to the end of my 1st week diet plan... i've lost abt 4kgs now... this is the max. i've lost when i'm in singapore... hehe cause i lost more when i was in BMTC in Tekong... back then i lost abt 20kgs... but when i when into airforce i gain back the 10kg... now i just wanna try to take out this 10kgs again hahaha :P

Maybe 2molo i would go TP for a swim in the morning... just hope i could wake up :P wanted to go bedok swimming complex... but thinking tat there might be kids practising how to swim... i rather go TP swim hehehe :P

End of Part-time Job

Finally finished tat boring 4 day part time job in TP... haha didn't realised tat the lecturers there actually turned up for such an event... it's where the lecturers come down to the sports complex to take part in a fitness assessment... they just gotta either run the 2.4km or walk a 2km distance... n after everythingy there was even a lucky draw for them... haha n in between the time when the lecturers were awaiting their turn to run or walk... they got to play games with some of us... the way they played games... i think even the students there lose out to them... they were so sporting n full of energy to play games even before the run... hehehe

Well, TP still looks the same as before... but the ITAS canteen... it's now air-conditioned!!! AIRCON in a school canteen... n only in ITAS... hai~ the students now r so pampered :P hahaha during the work there... i saw eddie, my sec sch mate... he's studying in TP now n is in the track n field team... damn he sure can run... or i should say fly~ he's like the fastest in his team sia hahaha :P was doing this part time with kenny n his army frenz... it was quite a coincidence to bum into jessie from 4B in sec sch... she's doing the same job too... n got to know some new frenz too... but i didnt ask for her phone number lah sorry kenny... hahaha i should have ask it for u hor? LOL :P

Actually i wanted to... but i kinda gave up on gals... making frenz yes... but asking for phone number after knowing her from a part time job... kinda weird... but maybe i should have at least ask for her msn :P hahaha but hey... if there is fate, we would meet again... LOL :P

At least i'm glad tat there's still gals out there who would wanna tok to me n know more abt me... she's kinda sweet... hahaha hai~ :P

Diet Plan

Today is Day 4 of my diet plan... had been going on diet since Monday... only ate breakfast n dinner everyday... i skipped lunch... actually wanted to skip dinner too... which means only 1 meal per day... but i'm too hungry on the 1st night of the diet... so decided to change it to 2 meals a day...

For breakfast, i ate 2 self-made ham sandwiches... then same for dinner... n today is the 4th day... n i've lost abt 2-3kgs hehehehe :P kinda glad abt it... but still gotta watch out cause if i start going back to my normal eating habit... i would become fatter than i was before i start the diet hehe :P so gotta watch wat i eat everyday...

So... frenz, please forgive me if i said no when u all ask me wanna eat anot :P hehehe i must at least slim down to 86kgs... tat was the weight when i POP from BMTC hahaha :P after tat... if i could hit tat target... the next targetr would be my ideal weight which is 75+kgs hahahaha... it's too early to start daydreaming... but must at least set a short-term goal n a long-term goal... if not my life would be absolutely pointless... :P

sian~ thought i would be enjoying my leave this whole of november... but i'm not... part of it is because i've got no $$... spent too much on my malaysia trip in october, that's y now i gotta stay at home everyday... till my next pay day... but at least next month i would have extra $$ cause i'm doing a part time now... well it's just a 4day part time work in TP... not working for TP though hehe...

anyway, staying at home is ok... cause i still got a PS2 and a PC, well i got everythingy at home that could keep me company for the whole day, everyday... but now i'm getting bored :P can't even enjoy going out with friends... cause i gotta watch out on what i spend on... i'm even borrowing $$ from my mom again... borrowed $20 from her already... still got 1 more week to go till pay day... hai~ i think some time next week i would have to borrow another $10 from mom again... only after i get my pay then i could return it to her...

also, staying at home is not a good thingy, especially for me... cause my mind would go wondering around... i think too much... too much till i broke down... a couple of days back, was about to sleep at nite... it was almost 1am i think... i couldn't sleep cause i have too much on my mind... so i played a few songs on the PC... all kinda sad songs :P they kinda make me think more... till the extend that i broke down and cried... the lyrics of the songs were too sentimental... it adds to my heart ache... i even thought to myself: "why didn't ah-ma take me with her when she died" she could have prevented me from suffering so much now...

i cried for about 1/2 an hr that nite... i just can't stop... till i was too tired to think any more, which i think i fell asleep afterwards... i thought about it for quite sometime... why am i crying for somethingy that doesn't even have a start to begin with? why am i crying for when not even a soul cares or appreciates me? i don't know... all i know now is... i got parents to take care of... and i'm gonna work to ensure they live a happy life... i'm not gonna work for anybody else... cause i know in this world... nobody appreciates or cares about me except my parents and family...

i don't wanna think about relationship stuffs anymore... well i try not to think about it... i mind as well stay single cause this is a cruel and materialistic world... everyone is going after $$, fame, sweet talks and looks... wanna know why? ever heard anyone saying "hey, that fat guy/gal looks handsome/pretty"? i'm just sick of this world... but i just gotta try to ignore all these everyday in my life and live on... all i can say is it sucks...

a new look for my blog~ got it from blogskins tis time... cus i can't tink of any more designs better than tis :P

Changed my blog song~