Thursday, June 30, 2005

touching jap serial

i just cried...

not becus of any personnal matters... but becus of a japanese serial... "The Way I Live" or in chinese "我的生存之道"... it's a beri touching story... abt a guy who is diagnose wif stomache cancer... n less than a year to live... so he decides to make everyday count... not just tinking ahead into the future... but tinking abt rite now, the present day, wat happens 2day, cus he might not know when he would just die...

had been watching tis serial for the past few days... it's been the 7th episode if not wrong... but wat made me cried 2day was tat... he broke up wif his gf... but she dont mind being wif him even if he is sick... yet he wanted the break up... but the gal was persistent... when the guy went back to his hometown to visit his mom... the gal followed... n his mom mistaken her as his fiancee (cus they already broke up)... the guy wanted to break the news of his cancer to his mom... but wasnt able to...

when they got back to the city... the guy was enlightened by his colleague... tat if he was the one who had the stomache cancer... he would not break up wif his gf... so... tat guy when to propose to his gf... n she accepted it... n tat guy called home to his mom to tell her the gal had agreed to marry him... n oso to tell her he has got stomache cancer... the moment he broke the news to his mom... i cried...

i was tinking wat if someone close to me were to leave me... i dont want tat to happen... who would?... then it oso enlightened me abit... one should make full use of his time in a day... n not waiting or putting any matter till the next day to settle... tis way we wouldnt regret doing anytingy tat we wanted to but had no time for it... cus we might not know wat would happen 2molo...

then a song came into my mind... Jay Zhou's "Kai Bu Liao Kou"...

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Reboot, Restart, Reformat...

if ur pc hangs, u can reboot or restart it... if it kana virus or some errors that cant be fixed, u can reformat ur pc... but risks losing all ur important informations... how i wish i could restart my life... or reformat my memories, risks losing all my memories of my frenz, those joyful moments n yes, those unhappy/sad times...

so sad... so low... so depressing... like infected wif a virus... cant clean away those saddness... cant wipe away those pain...

either i get an "antivirus" to clean away all my sorrows... or "reformat/restart" my life...

i cant help it... everytingy in my life is making me more pessimistic... i wanna change... i wanna get up... but every single tingy is pushing me down...

Saturday, June 25, 2005

I envy them so much...

when i was at padang helping out at the water storage container... the GOH contingents were just opposite us on the road resting... n the police GOH were just rite infront... n i saw tat 'li jiawei' lookalike again haha :P she was sitting on those concrete bench wif one of her colleagues... a guy to be exact... i presumed they r more then just frenz lah... i envy tat guy... so lucky to find a gal tat likes him... n envy her too... to be in love...

but sometimes i hate it so much to see couples on the streets... so much in love... i hate them cus it hurts me... hurts me to see tat everyone has somebody to love but me...

yet i would envy them... knowing tat they r in love... beri contradicting rite? i oso dont know wat i was tinking abt... tat was wat i thgt when i saw her in at the resting point... wif tat guy...

maybe i just feel tat... y is it so hard for a gal 2 love me... so hard... like its impossible... it wont happen... it hurts alot loh tinking abt it... just feel like crying whenever i tink abt love n such tingys... hai~ :'(

NDP Rehearsal at Padang

when to marina promenade at 7.30am for ndp rehearsal 2day... cus the water points n ration points r located there... its a long stretch along the promenade n its cramp up by the participants once they arrived there... it was hard to bring water to the designated points becus of the crowd... we oso went to padang to assist the water points at the form-up area... helped them to deliver 'new water' the the points... then went back to mainra promenade to help out ration n water points there... it might sound simple... but the distance we gotta travel wif those heavy bottles n containers... it was tiring loh...

some more its so difficult to 'serve' those marching contingent... always expect us to provide them wif water wherever they r... pls loh... there r water located at the resting/form-up area for them to drink... yet they come n ask from us at our storage container... ok loh no choice so we gave them drinks... but not enough cus the rest r at the form-up area... then is like they blaming us for not having enough water for them... arhh~

then 2day they like did the entire rehearsal loh... even got chinooks, F5, F16, KC135, C130, Fooker 50 n super puma if not wrong for the fly-over... tink they did some performances at the padang too... but we were at the marina promenade so we cant tell wat was going on there... althgt the rehearsal ended like 6-7pm... we just sat down n wait... n wait... not sure for wat... then it was like 9pm plus then we started clearing the place at marina promenade... it was a beri tiring day sia~ work for like 13+ hrs loh... now legs n arms all aching liaoz... hai~ next sat still got the same tingy... die liaoz lah... :P

Monday, June 20, 2005

New layout woo~ hehe :P

changed my blog layout again... hehe :P cus me wanna to start afresh hehehe :) just hope everytingy would go better from now on...

btw... i would never give up... never surrender... hahaha... when there's a will, there's a way... :)

Sunday, June 05, 2005

sunday duty~

went to work tis morning wif teo bk... he took a taxi down 2 bedok n we went CABeast together... cus he say his car not ready yet... then reached there he forgot 2 bring base pass... end up gotta change a pass... n bruce oso forgot 2 bring his pass n gotta change too... hahaha...

then i was surprised to see the sat crew still in base... cus they said ytd airfield standby whole nite... so cant go back... then tis morning then go home... they look damn tired sia...

i knew today we gonna do mthly svc on the southern hookwire... actually me was mentally prepared 2 be tired... but then end up was more tiring then i expected... maybe cus i long time nv do servicing liaoz... or maybe too long not in airfield liaoz... cus keep going back hq 2 clock OJT n take ippt... sian~ plus 2day's weather beri hot... cant stand it man.. n i had only abit of water b4 going out 4 servicing...


so today really really tired loh... lucky 2molo got to go off... if not sure cant make it 1... hope i cant apply off on wed n fri... i still got lots of time-off for NDP yet 2 claim... i need a rest man...

2day i went to the eForum in mindef intranet website... n went to the relationships forum... read some of the treads... n found some sentences really meaningful...

"If that gal like u, then she can also act as a sort of motivation for u to strive harder mah"
"Be confident of urself mah"
"Haven't even start u already doubt urself in giving her happiness"

It's really meaningful isn't it? hehe... n it sort of inspired me to write down some stuffs... n i'll try to tink more +ve day by day... try not to doubt myself anymore... i really like to give HER happiness...

Fri + Sat happening~

Firstly it was Friday... we had a game of winning eleven 8 in the crewroom rite after lunch... ee win jh... but i win ee in an extra time match last min goal in the 2nd half hahaha... but ee said he was distracted cus encik manjit came into the room... but anyway i still won hahaha... later we had a ceremony in the evening abt 3pm... our sqn + S4 branch were issued wif a air logistics brevet... for got wat it's for liaoz haha but anyway... tat badge is so ugly loh... kinda heavy too to pin on the no.3 uniform all the time...

then after tat we proceeded to the spec mass for refreshment + tok cock... n i asked mdm tan if i was really promoted to corporal... but she said no... cus the R.O. haben publish yet... tat stupid 'nono' keep telling me i promoted already as stated in the email... F him lah...

after tat some of us went down to TM seoul garden for dinner... it was the biggest cab/ams informal gathering ever... hahaha total of 25+1 went down... tat plus 1 is alvin... cus he came after we all finished eating hahaha... we had tis dinner for ah kan n ee n colin's ord... but colin gotta do duty so he cant make it... but he made it for the 2nd half... KTV at loyang point... out of the 26 ppl from dinner... tink only 9 went for the KTV... we didnt went to Kbox cus tink its too expensive... so went down to loyang point instead... then end up i reached home almost 2am in the morning...

so i only slept for 6hrs n woke up at 8pm on SAT for my NDP Rehearsal... hai~ another weekend burnt... cus i'm doing duty at CABeast on SUN again... somemore gotta do servicing under the hot sun :( isn't the fatigue work at NDP enough? still gotta do duty hai~ but i dont mind going 2 CABeast.... hehehe...

i had my late breakfast in Nee Soon Camp... chicken rice + egg + nuggets... then after tat... i had no mood for lunch n dinner in camp... cus i 'tink too much' again~ oso tink u guys tired to keep listening abt it... so i wont bored u guys to death in here :P

the rehearsal ended abt 7pm... but we gotta clear n clean up the place... n a short briefing... ended up leaving the place at 8.30pm... then proceeded to meet up wif ming, qq, wanyi, n dl... quite some time nv see dl already... but still pretty... hahaha... they went to tis 'ming ge chan ting' at millenium walk... so i went the to meet up wif them... the singers there had quite gd vocals... n gd at jokking around too :P too bad i cant sing tat well... if not i sure go there work hahaha :P but colin confirm can go there work... his voice damn power sia :P

then we shared taxi home... qq n I went in one... n ming, wanyi n dl in the other... lucky qq knew a taxi driver's contact n called for taxi... if not we would be stranded at marina square for dont know how many hrs :P then I oso kinda paiseh... gotta ask qq 2 help me pay the fare 1st... cus me no more $ wif me... but gonna treat her back to a meal or ktv watever :P hehe then can oso tank her for her listening ear in msn :P tanks alot :)

gotta go slp liaoz... if not 2molo no energy 2 work... :(

Thursday, June 02, 2005


cute little white n black sheepy Posted by Hello