actually i havent been blogging alot lately, other than ytd when i bought a new watch... well, partly is becus i didnt go out much, other than work... weekends had become "stay home weekend" ever since i started work... cus too tired to move after 5 days of "route-match"... it would be more sian after work, if i come home n continue to blog abt my work... so i stopped...

another tingy is i had been blocking my feelings, cus i've had enough of expressing my feelings out... it hurts my heart n gives me headache whenever i wanna express my feelings... i nv expect i would end up like this... thgt everytingy would go well n simple... but everytingy start to complicate themselves everytime i do sometime... yes i'm still living in the past, n yes i cant get out of it... just cant find the "restart" button for it...

i know where the problem lies n wat my flaws r... but even if i make change, wat i already had in my memories cant be changed... just too bad, i'm the kinda person who cant erase memories... especially bad ones... just gotta try to prevent anymore bad memories recording in... tat's y the blocking of feelings

sounds like blowing up a small n stupid experience... but too me it's big... no one would understand...

went walk walk at tampines just now... cus every weekend stay home paly game oso sian... saw kenny at singtel working so went over to say hello... then saw fu at CSq working in metro as a promoter hehe... nv knew would see him there... tok to him for awhile then stop by the swatch department in metro to look for a watch... n bought this design for $189 hehehe :P rather expensive for a watch but it's wat i wanted, it's really light, a stopwatch, and it's analog... hehe once in awhile gotta treat myself nice nice... if not beri sian :P cus if i dont even treat myself nice, who else would? hahaha

it's been sooooo boring loh... entire week really sian... decided to lighten my load in my bag by dividing the stuffs into another shoe bag... so now my bag is lighten n wont strain too much on my shoulders, but now i gotta hold on to the shoe bag everytime... leaving me with only 1 free hand... so now i'm kinda straining my hand... hahaha :P anyway must try to get used to tis cus at least it's better than everythingy lump into 1 bag...

had been window shopping at suntec while working in the area last week :P it's not everytime i would get the chance to go suntec to do calls... but tink cus of the holidays coming many colleagues r going on leave so short of man power these 2 weeks i guess... anyway, i stopped by the swatch outlet to check out the watches there... was tinking of getting a watch, one tat's lighter, analog, with date n stopwatch hahaha kinda demanding... but tink swatch should haf wat i want n with nice designs... but all i saw there was mostly made of steel or with leather straps... was hoping to find one with pastic strap, well... plastic overall :P

didnt really spot one... so asked the salesgal for a catalog... n did find a few nice designs tat's wat i wanted... but not all outlets haf the same kinda designs on sale, so gotta go around to look for them liao... actually wanted to stop by the outlet at TM today... but then lazy to go out lah... n got lots of nice movies n shows on tv so end up didnt go out at all... hahaha :P but anyway buying a swatch is wat i want, it's still not under the 'need' category... so still can wait awhile...

hai~ so sian... notingy much to do... play games oso abit sian... cus not much fun playing games alone hahaha hai~

restarted work again 2day, thgt 2weeks of rest would be sufficient for me to regain back my strength... but i was wrong... those 2weeks of rest all went down the drain in just one day... all becus of the stupid heavy bag... cannot tahan lah... carry such a heavy tingy walking around half a day... once in awhile sit down n rest oso not enough to regain back the energy to carry the bag...

everyday every evening sure feel beri tired... somemore gotta stand allthe way in the mrt... on the way to work stand, on the way home oso stand... hai~ y am i so 'lucky' to find such a job? i dont mind carrying stuffs around, cus i dont like sitting in an office facing a pc... i will fall asleep... but then carrying a bag n only putting it down when servicing the machine really tiring loh... hai~ how how?

dont know if i can last till 1 yr... just gotta tahan abit more, abt 5 more months to go till 1 yr... then really gotta search for another job liaoz... cus really cant do tis forever... confirm will haf back ache or shoulder pains 1 loh...

then everyday reach home feel so tired already... dont even feel like going down to run... how to lose weight n pass ippt like tat... sian... my window gonna close in april loh... still far away but for tis kinda stuff, the time always fly really fast 1... hai~ hai~ hai~

AAARRRGGGHHHHHH~~~~~

cannot tahan anymore... head hurt alot... 1stly due to the way the contractors from the upgrading works do their job... half fuck one loh... water pipe under the sink leaking, but nv bother to fix up, tell them then they fix it... but it still leaks till we gotta tell the supervisor to get the job done properly... then comes the door, should haf been done up few days before the last day of handing over... but then dont know way they drag n drag till the last day... but tats not all, i gotta keep calling their main site office to tell them to get someone up to our unit to fix up the main door... still not the end yet... they did put up the door... but dont know how the man test it... i cant even close the door without slamming it hard... who slams their door to close it?

so i call back the office to get them to fix the problem... but i call from 2pm till 5pm then they decided to really send someone up to take a look n fix the door... wat fucking contractors r these?

ok tat's it with the contractors... thgt i could finally relax n enjoy my last few days of rest at home... but nooo~ our new water heater in the kitchen toilet is giving us problem... it doesn't seem to haf enough water pressure... so the water coming out from the shower head is beri the small loh... so we ask the contractors to check if the problem was with the water pipes or the heater...

then they said it's the main water meter outside our unit tat's causing the low pressure... so we called up the town council to haf the meter checked... but they came n found the tap wasn't really opened properly n part of the meter was even shut off...

but then even after when they fix the meter outside, the water pressure is still low... so i decided to troubleshoot it myself... i tried connecting the shower head to the water tap instead of to the water heater... n the pressure was alrite... so i realise tat the problem was not with our pipe but the it was either the way the water heater was connected or the water heater is faulty...

so the last ting we could do is to get the person from the shop we bought the water heater from to try fix the problem... 1st they say is because when the contractors fix up the heater they nv put in a stopper in the tubing tats y the pressure was low... but then i try putting in the stopper the pressure still didnt improve... so just now we ask the person to come our house to look at the problem... but he keep insisting tat the problem is the pressure from the main pipe is too low... no matter how he test it...

i told him i tried testing the shower head by connecting directly to the tap... but he say there's no difference... i was so furious with his reply i kept quiet... he kept saying its the same no matter how we connect it... n the pressure from the main is low... damn u!!

one other ting tat made me more mad was my mom actually agreeded with the man tat the pressure was low from the pipe, n there was no change in the pressure even if we change the connection to the tap (bypassing the heater)... i was sooo mad i raised my voice at my mom when the man left... n i asked her to look at the difference in pressure when i connect the shower head to the heater n to the tap alone... then she realised the difference... i was sooo pissed off loh... all these household matters r giving me such a headache... thgt after getting a new water heater would solve the problem tat the old heater was giving us... but no... there isn't even any improvements... NB~CB~!!