went down to recruit express tis morning at 10.30am... it's at tampines cpf building... did notingy much there just filled up a form n left... talked to the guy lah, abt wat type of jobs i'm interested in n my availability... hmm thgt he was gonna tell me abt the job i applied for online but not... tis is kinda like putting me into their recruitment agency... well, it's notingy tat bad... at least he would keep a lookout for jobs suitable for me too...

after tat i went to TM n CS for a walk... long time nv went there so early in the morning for window shopping already... since i moved back to bedok i nv really had the chance to go back tampines unless i need to buy sometingys or meet frenz... actually wanted to watch Final Destination 3 at CS... bu the timing just wasnt rite... the show started at 10.30am too, maybe tat's a sign for me to keep my $... n buy the DVD instead... hahaha :P already had Final Destination 1 & 2 DVDs... now just haf to wait for FD3's DVD to release...

then went to popular bkstore to look for the 'cookie' bk i was toking abt few days back... but i just cant find it... maybe tis popular is just too small... but just then i was completely attracted to tis song tat was being played in the store... i just cant help but fell in love wif the music n lyrics of the song... but i just cant figure out the name of the song... but i knew it's a duet song...

next i went to times bkstore... n again i just couldnt find it... maybe i just gotta go down to Borders to search for it then... but it wont be so soon, cus i dont like going down to orchard :P

then i thgt of going to music junction to see if i could find any albums on duet songs... n i found just one... n i scan the names of the songs n their singers... only found one tat i wasnt familiar wif... cus the rest all i heard b4 already... only tat one... so i remembered the song name "Jin(1) Sheng(1) Zhu(4) Ding(4)" n hope to find it online when i got home... cus i just haf tt feeling tis might be the song...

i took bus no.18 home... bought a new paper to read along the way... then i saw tis joke section kinda funny... here's one of the jokes:

>Two antennas met on a roof, fell in love and got married. The ceremony wasn't much, but the reception was excellent.<

haha i find tis quite funny loh... :P

when i reached home i went online to search for the song to see if it was the rite song tat i heard in popular bkstore... hehe wat do u know... it's the rite one... sooo lucky :P the song is really beri nice... beri sentimental... how i wish i could sing it to the one i loved... hai~

Will i ever get a job?

was awaken by the ringtone of my handphone tis morning at abt 11am... got a call from an agent regarding a job, saying tat he would be sending in my resume to tis company... so i would be waiting 4 a reply to whether i would go 4 an interview... but it's uncertain...

then just now... when i just got home, my handphone rang again... tis time another agent, asking me if i'm still searching for a job... n told me to go down to tampines 2molo morning to get more details from me... so i agreed, cus I AM kinda desperate for a job already... DESPERATELY IN NEED OF CASH$$...

well to make tings clear... i didnt asked any agencies to help me search for jobs... all i did was search for openings online at www.jobsdb.com every single day... n send in my resume to those i'm interested in... n most of them r posted by agencies, so i wondered... if when i get a job tis way... would the agency like get a small portion of my pay?... if tat's the case then it's so not worth it :P

but all i could do now is pray tat i would get a job soon... i'm trying not to be too stressed over all these job huntings... cus it's such a headache looking for a job... n maybe the additional stress is coming from the shortage of cash tat i would be encountering these next few days n weeks to come...

WHERE'S MY NTUC PAY???

Double Dealer

Double Dealer is a character in Transformers: MasterForce Series... but actually it's original name was double clouder when i searched the websites for it... well anyway tat's not the point... tis character can be both autobots n decepticons, it has got 2 identity but must choose which side he wants to be wif... so it kinda acts as a spy n haf 2 ways of tinking...

wat i'm trying to say is... ppl tend to say sometings n do otherwise, which is kinda like the character Double Dealer... my case for instance, i just went down to open my letterbox n go buy TOTO... on the way back i stepped into 7-11 to get a slurpee... it's apple flavour if u wanna know :P haha... so notingy wrong wif all these... but on the way back i started to tink...

i thgt abt how long i'm gonna keep waiting, for my NTUC pay to arrive, tat's y i kept going down to open my letterbox... sooo all these time i kept telling myself over n over again not to over spend n not to spend on unnecessary tings... n here i am going down to buy TOTO, but hey how knows one might get lucky just tis once... :P but then the slurpee, $1.60, i thgt to myslef y would i spend $1.60 on a cold ice blended drink, when i could haf saved up tat $... or i could haf just went to the market to get a cold soya bean drink which would just cost me abt $0.50... n i could buy 3 packets wif the money i spent on that slurpee...

so i kinda hate myself for tat... wat i've been telling myself over n over again is not even effective... i would still go abt doing the wrong tings... y am i keep conflicting myself... it's like i'm behaving like double dealer... tinking one way n doing the other... kinda making my own matters worst every minute, everyday...

saw tis cookie recipe from a magazine... gonna try make the cookie myself as soon as i get a job n a stable income... cus now cant waste $ on unnecessary tingys... or maybe i could go buy the book where the magazine got tis recipe from :P the name of the bk is "Biscuits, Cookies & Brownies", it said the book is available in major bkstores... maybe can go times or popular check it out 2molo :P

kinda reminded me the time when i made the chocolates wif my sister's help :P hehe but the chocolates didnt turn out tat gd... would turn soft in room temperatures...

hai~ dont tink it was appreciated anyway... it's a memory tat should be erased... one tat was sweet n yet wif bitter outcome... but can one really erase it's own memory?

ICQ~

hehehe ytd nite really beri bored... so keep tingy wat can do online... like notingy much to surf 1 leh... keep watching re-runs on online tv oso sian... then suddenly i remembered abt ICQ hahaha :P so long nv use tis since i started using msn messenger... so decided to try use again n see if anyone i know still using ICQ now... it still looks the same loh... but wif lots more features than last time already... even can choose other sound schemes for incoming msg instead of the usual 'uh oh'...

hehe n my last time info still in the database... didnt even remember i wrote those tingys... but then sian loh... none of the ppl on my list r online... haha like as if everyone in sg stopped using ICQ liao :P still remember last time tis still quite alot of ppl use...

now every1 stick to messengers already liaoz bah... so i uninstalled ICQ again :P

hai~ really need to work man... if not i gonna go crazy stay home everyday... cant keep going swim oso mah... somemore everytime go swim sure cannot swim properly due to the kids n some stupid uncles blocking the lanes...

Headache~

hai~ i cant stop tinking abt money matters... 1st tingy is i havent get a job yet, 2ndly is tat there r so many upcoming events tat's gonna need lots of $$... 3rdly is even the NTUC might not even seem to be enough to last me till my bday~

how am i gonna treat weihe they all on my bday... just hope watever is left till then is sufficient for a treat... really sorry guys... nv once did i even treat u all 2 a meal... but i'll try my best to save till then...

i'm still gonna give ma n pa ang-pao money from the NTUC pay i'm getting soon... but maybe gotta decrease abit liaoz... just $300 each instead of $350...

i thgt of changing the scv plan to a cheaper 1 at least it would help me save up some money... but then keep calculating... there isn't any gd plans available... cus even the cheapest plan would only save me $10 from wat i'm paying now... so mine as well forget abt it...

then there's no return to a cheaper plan for my max online cus i wanted the free PC tat i'm using rite now from their promotion offer...

hai~ just gotta find a job fast... was tinking if can find one n start working by 1st march then everytingy might just turn out fine... cus i would get paid by april mah... then confirm got enough $ to treat weihe they all loh...

oso 2day i went swimming wif rudy at TP swimming pool... then we tok abt the pilot application tat i sent in... which finally helped me made up my mind to find other alternatives 1st... instead of waiting for their reply... cus even if they reply... i would haf to go through tough interviews b4 i could be selected... n i myself cant guarantee i could pass the interview...

hai~ really gotta start tinking other point of views already... kept tinking in one straight direction is not getting me anywhere... would only make my matters worst... haha i'm really stubborn sia... just like wat my horoscope says i am...

Maplesea~

haha i tink due to serious boredom... i tried out on maplesea, an online multiplayer game played by almost all ages all around the world bah... cus really notingy for me to do at home... ps2 oso abit sian sometimes, then cm0304 on pc can kill time... but it's just clicking n clicking for hrs, worst tingy is the scoreline could be sooo unrealistic... i can trash a team 9-1, which is quite impossible in real life haha... then somemore oso no $$ to go buy more ps2 games n dvds...

watch tv or re-runs on video tapes oso sian... cus most of the shows i've already watched more than 5times, some even until 10times... n yup i still haf video tapes... would even record some of the shows on scv so as to keep a copy of it... haha incase they wont show it again...

well back to maplesea... wanted to installed it n play months ago... but i didnt do it cus i feel it would be boring to move around n level up... haha but still i did it just now... downloaded it n installed it... didnt know it would be so troublesome to play an online game... still gotta register so much tingys... then finally get to play the game... kinda better than i thought it would be... but waiting to level up takes so long... gotta keep on hunting monsters... but at least got sometingy new to keep me entertained :P... well for now loh...

hai~ tink gotta start go shopping for clothes already... for interview n casual wear... cus all my clothes in the closet r too big... last time all my clothes gotta be XL... now i could fit into L, but still my size is in between XL n L hahaha :P just gotta try lose somemore kgs liaoz... n even the class T-shirt i got from sec sch n orientation T-shirt from poly, i could wear them now n even with alittle space to spare :P hehe so happy can fit into old clothes...

anyway i got a few shirts but they r oso too big i guess... so gotta go shop for new clothes liaoz loh :P nv gone shopping for clothes alone b4... kinda scared :P cus last time i always do my shopping wif my parents... now all grown up liaoz should shop for my own clothes loh hahaha :P

yeah~ i finally submitted the application for cadet pilot just now... but not sure if would get any feedback from SIA... wish me luck friendz :P

sometimes i just wish i could stop time, make everything stay still for just that particular moment... but there are also times when i just wish that time would just pass us by with a blink of an eye...

just finished filling up the pilot application tis afternoon... wont submit it yet cus i still dont haf a recent photo of myself... gonna take photo 2molo n make copies of my documents... ytd at the gathering rudy told me his frenz oso applying 4 pilot, which was sometime ago already... he did told me b4, saying his frenz gotta retake his o-levels cus they require us to pass english i one sitting... but i pass mine as a private candidate...

when i heard tis last time... i gave up on tinking abt applying for pilot, but when i went online n saw the application, it stated o-levels OR diploma... so i thgt i got a diploma which would be enough rite... so decided to apply for it anyway... maybe can wait n see if it really require to pass english n other subjects in one sitting...

would oso start to send in resumes for other jobs... hehe might even try for police :P then really gotta try pass IPPT liaoz haha... hai~

life is so full of shit... had a tok wif ma ytd, b4 going out 4 the gathering... we tok abt our family's current income n expenditures... it is then when i realised tat our family really running low on $$... ma only get abt $600 every month from her part time job... then pa only abt $100 every week, somemore it's a full time job...

but worst is... cus pa is still under bankruptcy... so every month we gotta pay $200 to the OA, then there's the electric/water bill abt $170 every month, house loan $400, added up already abt $800 already... lucky sis still got give $$ to them every month if not dont know how we gonna pay for all these... then plus i got my own bills abt $200 every month... so total we gotta pay abt $1K for all kinds of bills...

so i was toking to ma abt how i gonna settle all these $ wif my future job... really gotta find a job tat could let me take home at least $1500... then i told her i would keep $500, n the $1K i would use to pay all those bills... n the money they earned themselves... they could keep it or use it for themselves...

tink tis is the only way out for now... $500 every month should be enough for me... just gotta stop going out... hehe anyway i dont really go out :P... well, the best solution is the cadet pilot application... if tis goes well then it would be the best tingy tat happen in my life... hehe if not... then it sucks... hahaha :P

actually i was tinking i'm kinda lucky not to be in a relationship or anytingy... cus it would make the money matters worst...

Miscalculated~

shit man... only tis morning when i got awaken by a sms then i realised... i would be back into my financial crisis abt a month later... i really gotta get a job soon... thgt i could survive 2more months... but now shortened to only abt 1month... when i get the NTUC pay... would be giving $700 to ma n pa... then the rest plus those i having in my bank now... cant last me 2months... cus got bills n daily spendings n outings wif frenz...

so would be sending in my application for cadet pilot by tis week... hope tis application work out... but if not... i would haf to continue searching online for jobs... already found some suitable jobs... but wanna try the pilot 1st so i put the others on queue... hai~

Life is full of critical decisions that could change one's life completely.

woke up at 9.30am tis morning... thgt abt going swimming... but after eating breakfast n relex awhile it's already near 11am... so didnt wanna go swim cus scare kana sun burnt again like last time... didnt haf sun-tan lotion oso, maybe it's time to go get one... then next time can go swim whenever i like :P

so instead i decided to go bank in my cny ang-bao $$... plus my parent's ang-bao, i banked in $500... quite alot considering my age now... so finally got some $$ to spend now... wont feel so empty or lost liaoz... but gotta spend wisely tis time... cus still gotta pay bills n everyday meals... still haben give ma n pa ang-bao tis cny yet... they gave me already... but wif all the $$ i got tis cny, if i gave them all... it would be quite little... so decided to wait till my NTUC pay arrive, then gave them a bigger ang-bao :P althgh by then it might already haf past cny, at least it would be useful... hehe better late then never mah :P

then after banking in the $$, me went shopping at NTUC :P wanted to buy bread, lettuce n ham... but just cant find the lettuce... dont know y... then oso bought bonjour's chocolate chip bread... kinda expensive thgh $2.60... but it's kinda nice when u toast it... taste like cookies :P hehe u ppl can give it a try...

then went to search for sun-tan lotion... but not sure which kind ato buy... so dropped the idea of buying 1 now... anyone got any suggestion?

dropped by the home appliance section in NTUC... wanna check if they got anytingy worth buying... then found a few dvd players quite stylish n kinda cheap... cus it's all Enzer brand mah :P but they look quite nice n the functions all haf loh... somemore got one on offer till end of FEB... usual price $89.90, now $59.90... i kept tinking whether to buy it or not... i kept comparing it wif others checking if it had most of the functions as those expensive ones had... of cus those more expensive ones had more functions lah... so i thgt of buying it... n since it's offer is till end of FEB i decided not to buy now...

so i paid n left NTUC n went to library to borrow a bk... but i was too late... it was on loan already... n its due date was 23 of FEB... hai~ now gotta wait liaoz... hope tat person wont renew the bk...

hehe when i stepped out of the library i kept tinking abt the dvd player... kept tinking if i would be wasting $$... but i knew tat i cant afford to use my ps2 to play anymore dvds... cus i scare the lens would spoil... n since it's just abt $60... maybe i could squeeze out abit $ for tis dvd player... hehe so i when back NTUC n bought tat dvd player... now i can watch my dvds without using ps2 liaoz :P n finally i could watch final destination 2... cus it cant run properly on my ps2... hehe wat a horrible yet great show to watch :P hahaha