i'm kinda getting sick of my job already... die ah... haben even 6months already like tat... how how??... today really suay loh... tink i cannot wear the blue shirt to work... cus everytime i do, confirm will kana stuck at a machine... today went to the customer at my office tower... gd tingy is if need spare parts can just go down the store to take... but the bad tingy is the problem with the machine...i couldn't find the fault even after changing some parts, i even went up n down to the store twice loh... the customer must be tinking whether i can fix the machine or not... so demoralising loh... but finally fixed the machine lah... after 3 hrs hahaha :P spent the whole morning at the customer place... sian~

2moro will try wear the blue shirt again... if really kana stuck again then i dont wanna wear blue liaoz lol...

just now was searching for cao ge's MV & tank's MV... cus went ktv last sat n saw the MV beri nice... so i put it on my friendster profile hahaha :P then i had a thought in my mind again... y can't love be simple, y is it so difficult to love somebody... hai~

last week hasn't been any good for me... 1st tingy was the change of a new uniform... it should haf been a gd tingy cus new uniform n more shirt to wear, cus previously only got 4 shirts to wear for 5days... now got 8 shirts liaoz... so no need to wash immediately...

it wasn't a gd start at all wif the new uniform... cus the 1st call already stuck for more than 1hr cus gotta wait for parts... then haben finish loh... the next day was even sent down to the railway station to fix a machine there... was the 1st time for me to go there... dont really like tat place... cus beri hot n dusty... then somemore after tat call, on the way back to the store, i was hit by sometingy tat drop from the tree... nope, it wasn't bird shit... cus it's red in color... n i kana birdshit before... tis time it wasn't warm or smelly... tink it was some berry or sometingy tat drop down n hit straight at me...

hai~ anyway lucky the shirt was in blue color... so the stain wasn't tat obvious...

then last week i kept on tinking alot of stuffs... got quite some feelings wanna write out... but then i didnt... it's all becus of a song tat made me tink so much :P the name of it was "zhe yang ai ni dui bu dui"... didnt write those feelings out partly cus i too tired to express myself anymore... but even if i did... it oso wouldn't make any difference to my surroundings... hai~

was reading a person's blog just now... toking abt her bday... then i thought to myself, i oso received some sms greetings n some online ones... but none were from the person who meant the most to me... tinking of it... i even waited from the eve of my bday, till the day itself, n even a day or 2 after my bday... yet, not even a belated sms greeting from tat person... i really do wonder who am i in tat person's point of view...

well, maybe to others, small gestures dont mean a tingy... but to me, the slightest tingy would either make or break my day...

ok back to reality :P 2day's dad's bday... hehe same as wat i gave to my mom on hers, i gave my dad an ang-bao just now... hehe feel so happy finally can give my parents $$ of my own... it's abt time i repay them back everytingy n more... i know it's not much n it's gonna take yrs n yrs... but it's just a duty of any son or daugther to take care of their parents...

then sian... my company is gonna haf a D&D on 25 aug... somemore the theme for it is back to school... meaning we gotta wear sch uniforms... sucks loh... who keeps their sch uniforms loh... but luckily saw an email 2day tat says we dont haf to go buy or rent a sch uniform, instead we can make our own... so i intend to go in wat i wear to work everyday... but plus my sec sch collar badge, if i can find it lah :P n a sch tie loh... i did keep a bedok town sch tie wif me, but not the uniform... hahahaha

ohh another sian... but then again good n bad lah... my blk is doing renovation now... n they gonna start on my unit around 23 sept 2006... so i applied annual leave for a period of 10days loh... hahaha finally get the chance to relax from carrying tat huge bag everyday... tanks to the renovation :P but i cant really relax oso... cus it's gonna be extremely dusty, n could only use the temp toilets they built at the void deck... just hope the dust dont create too much trouble for me n my mom... cus we would haf a hard time cleaning up...

these few days i kept tinking abt bball... dont know y oso hahaha... kept tinking of playing bball... but too bad i dont haf one... well i do haf one bball lah... but too colorful already... cannot bring out to play hahaha... tink maybe i go buy a cheap cheap 1... then can go down to my neighborhood court to play

wahahaha fat liao fat liao... sian tis morning weigh myself b4 going to work... more than 90kg sia... haha with the tool pouch n stuffs... then pants oso getting abit tighter than b4 :P really gotta restart diet plan again liaoz lol...

so didnt eat much for lunch 2day... only ate tao-suan n fruits... but dinner bought rice... then funny tingy is... when i came home n weigh myself again... it was 87kg... tink is becus i nv eat much during day n morning was carrying a pouch when weighing hahaha :P but after dinner go back 88kg liaoz hai~

hehehe so sian n tired everyday after work... oso lazy to exercise liao loh lol... must try 2molo go run... if i got the energy lah :P muahahaha

wat a day... started out great... cus i was on standby this morning as there wasn't any calls for me... tink most of the machines r on a break cus 2molo NDP... so i went to international plaza's BK for breakfast... 1st time in my life i tink, i had BK breakfast hahaha :P not bad actually... their harsh browns r rather nice... somemore is small n round, can just pop into the mouth... unlike Mac's harsh brown, abit too oily even the packing oso oily :P but BK's price abit to high though... :P lucky got coupons hahaha

then the horror started, received a call problem due to fax, saying can fax out but cant receive any fax... was tinking it shouldnt be any problem, cus i encountered a similar problem ytd... so just went down to the customer loh... then end up the problem was alot worst than i expected... cus watever i knew, i tried... but the problem was still there... so no choice, almost 1hr past... i called a team leader for help... he did wanted to come down personally to help me... but he got a call last min so ask me to try solving it in other ways... so i tried but still unsuccessful... so last tingy i could do... called my manager for help... he asked me to try changing some boards, did tat n still no change... until it was like 3pm plus!!!! ohh i started at 10am...

the team leader was free at last n came down to look at the problem... n after a few tests he realised the problem wasnt with our machine... it was the customer's ADSL filter tat was causing the problem... it distorted the line signal n so the fax couldnt be stored in the memory to print out... so just a simple solution of changing a better ADSL filter to solve the problem, took me abt 6hrs again to finish the call... hahaha 2nd time in tis job i was stuck tis long... n so 2day i only did 1 call... the worst record for me ever :P

hai~ but today wasnt tat bad as the 1st time i was stuck... i dont feel tat much depress cus i cant solve the problem for the customer fast... cus i told msyelf it's not me tat's giving the customer problem but the machines... i'm just there to help :P hahaha must psycho ourselves sometimes mah :P

at least 2molo get to rest cus it's NDP... miss the times when i was helping out last yr's NDP... so tiring yet quite fun... ohh yah 2molo oso mom's bday... going toa payoh interchange dim sum to celebrate her bday there :P gonna be the 1st time i chip in with my sis n bro to pay for the dinner... cus i started working... finally get to pay for my mom's meal :P

i am incapable of being happy... noting much i do is making me happy, i cant even tink abt tingys tat would make me happy... my heart n mind r refusing to allow any happy thoughts... the moment i start to wonder abt sometingy happy, my mind would just stop tinking abt anytingy, like there's a firewall to block out happiness... this is really drowning in sorrow...

so tired............. cant the world just end rite now?

so tired today... actually it wasn't a bad day to begin with... althgh ytd went to the last call n gotta continue this morning cus store close already can't get spare parts... so this morning went to the store to get the part n went back to the customer n fix the machine... at 1st i still scare after changing the part the machine still give problem... but then the problem was really caused by the part i draw out from store... so it shouldn't be a bad day wat...

somemore after tat all the calls r rather simple, some just change of drum carts only... but then i too kinda or too extra wanna help do 1 last call... cus the controller say got some urgent calls... so i finished my call at abt 4.15pm, n took a last call, my 8th call today... wat u know, system slow perhaps, i received the call only at 4.30pm, n the customer is at neil rd... now where was i? ohh yah, raffles quay!!

i thgt to myself tats's the last time i take a call after 4.15pm onwards... cus u want me to travel from raffles to neil rd, which was near cantonment rd, or outram park mrt if no one is familiar with roads... cus by the time i reach there... it was near 5pm, n if i require any parts to repair the machine, i cant do anytingy, as the store wont deliver to me after 5pm... so no choice... i tried to fix it with the parts i haf, which i thgt would solve the problem... but it didnt... i was sooo sick of tis... taking apart the machine to change a small gear was so tedious... y? cus the machine was the oldest model... n i couldn't finish fixing the machine cus the customer gotta knock off... so i packed up everytingy n went home at 6pm...

my hands were so dirty after 'tearing up' the machine... was looking for a toilet to wash them on the way to the mrt station... but i cant find any at outram park mrt... sooo i hack care n went home, stepped into the train with filthy hands... n i thgt, i hold on to the bars, n the dusts n dirt r transferred onto the bars... so the next person touching the bar would carrying them home... hmm... hope they remember to wash their hands before they do anytingy... hahahahaha cus besides dirt n dust, there's abit of chemicals too... i dont give a damn... so kill me if u want... no use keeping tingys gd or being gd... cus nobody give a damn either...

i wanna die... wanna reincarnate into a cat... full stop!