PAIN PAIN... my right big toe hurts alot... got injuried ytd after playing bball at tampines... long time nv play liaoz... dont tink i managed to sink any shots hahaha :P then worst came when i hit my toe, just by turning... tink my right toe abit too long... n shoe abit too small... my left foot ok loh... only right foot kana... the moment i injuried it i could feel the toe nail like flipped up n back again... n can feel the blood flowing under the nail...

but i still played on... trying to hold it off... but after awhile really cant make it already, cus made the injury worst when i ran... so i sat down n took off the shoe... n i could see the blood under the nail already, try to press down on the nail to check if the blood was real... hahaha n can see it moving when i press down... n it hurts...

2day still hurts... somemore i gotta walk n stand almost whole day... but still managed to walk lah... but only when i came home... i accidentally hit my toe against the bottom of the sink when i was washing my hand... n it hurts like hell... n i could still feel the pain right now... sian man... can do any sports tat requires to wear a shoe liaoz... can only go swimming only... hahaha

sian man... today is another bad day... 1st tingy is hp forgot to charge... but lucky got spare hp n its battery still full... so no choice just switched hp for today... then my runny nose still not better... n starting to haf soar throat oso... feel really sick when fixing the machine at customer's place... keep on pulling out the tissue again...

then worst tingy is i kana stuck at a customer machine right before lunch time... n i dont haf the habit of leaving the place to take lunch n come back to fix it again... so i continued to fix it like for 2hrs... so from 12noon till 2pm plus then finish the call... then after take still took another call cus it's just at the next floor in the same building... so end up i had my lunch at 3pm plus today... felt abit weak by then hahaha but still ok...

feel like taking mc leh... but then tinking of going to doc n take mc, then gotta submit mc... so troublesome... so forget abt it already... rather let it be... must be the swimming pool water i drank abit when i went swimming on sunday hahaha :P cus i was feeling fine before the swim n after tat all the flu started...

so sian... n so fast... it's the 7th month in the chinese calendar already... n NDP coming too... mom's bday oso... then just remembered... i still got 2 GV movie ticket vouchers still not used... n the valid date is only up to aug 06... is either i give them away or go TM watch 2 shows myself... but now like not much nice shows leh... how how? sian...

wah sian man... today really suay, forgotten to put extra CSR forms in my folder n just went to work... only after my 1st call then realised i only haf 3 CSRs left in the folder... which could last me till lunch time... then no choice loh, went back home to take somemore CSRs... took me almost 1hr to reach my home from clark quay... didnt had lunch, but just 3 quick spoon of fried rice mom cooked in the morning n ran back out to work...

funny tingy was all the time i spent going back home n going back to raffles place... i still managed to finish 7 calls today... maybe cus i sacrifice my lunch time to go back home bah... hehehe

then worst tingy today was tat i kept having runny nose whole day... even at customer's place i was busy wiping my nose... used to packets of tissues today... no felt so dry n pain at the end of the day loh...

today when i was at a customer's place just before i went back home... was trying to fix the copier when i over heard the 'ying yue ri ji' on 93.3fm... kinda envy the gal in the story cus the outcome was a happy ending... but anyway tat wasnt wat really caught my attention... it was a phrase the gal mentioned in the story tat really stuck me... althgh cant really remember it clearly... but it goes sometingy like:

'since the person dont love you, n along the years tat person's feelings towards you still never change, there's no point making yourself miserable, cus if tat person's feelings towards you could change, it would already haf, why wait till now'...

tis is really true... cus if sometingys in life could change... why wait so many yrs before the change could take place... why not earlier...

after so many yrs... i've come to an end... i realised... i hate love...

new song

found a song tat sort of roughly sums up how i feel~

noticed my blog no more background song? cus i thought the previous one dont really sum up wat i've been feeling tis past few weeks... still searching for a song though... tat could express my feelings better...

last week wasn't really a gd one for me... every part of it gotta do with my work, not going too well but still trying to cope... n the travelling in mrt in morning n evening, is turning me into a mean person, u gotta observe me in the train when i'm travelling in the morning to know wat i mean... dont blame me, i dont like wat i'm doing either, but cus of all the other inconsiderate singaporeans, i gotta do the same to give them a taste of their own medicine... hmm maybe tat's wat those ppl r tinking too, muahahaha

didnt went out 2day again, thought abt going to funan, peninsula or even sim lim sq... but didnt, cus partly is lazy lah hahaha... but i wasnt feeling really gd either... my neck is like aching alot not sure y oso, maybe cus of the heavy bag i've been carrying all weekdays, but tis afternoon when i just laid on my bed for a few mins n got back up... my head was already hurting, not the spinning type but like receiving a blow kinda hurt... n neck was aching too... tink i need to warm up every morning before i go to work liaoz... if not sometingy would happen to my back n neck...

tinking of going tampines 2molo... wanna go popular buy file for my notes... cus my files r all torn already hahaha gotta be more gentle next time... oso maybe go shopping wanna look at shoes n shorts cus i'm kinda lack of both...

OHH PLS NOTE IF U GUYS R READING TIS, I HAD BEEN REFUSING TO MEET UP WITH U GUYS FOR DINNER ON SATURDAYS CAUSE WEEKENDS R THE ONLY DAYS MY MOM COOKS, OTHER THAN TAT EVERYDAY OSO EAT OUT. SO RATHER EAT HOME COOKED DINNER THAN GOING OUT FOR ONE... SORRY GUYS HOPE U UNDERSTAND

tis is wat happens when i'm in a bad mood... actually only got the packet of rice n carrot cake, but then when i reach home i remembered mom cooked fried rice in the morning... n i didnt eat it cus in a hurry to go to work... so end up got the fried rice oso loh lol... now quite full liaoz haha...

2day really sian... 1st was i woke up late... like 7.50am then wake up loh hahaha... so i rushed out as fast as i could... then at bedok mrt station, cus i in hurry, didnt lift my right leg high enough... so tripped over the escalator on the way up to the control station... luckily its on the way up when i tripped, if going down sure die hahaha :P it was notingy much... just bruised the area above my right feet... oso lucky no one was beside me when i fell... if not sure hit the person... i tink those ppl behind me must haf freaked out when they saw me tripped... hahaha :P but i didnt bother to look behind... just continued walking to the train

then towards the end of the day... doing my last call... i thgt i could finish it fast n go home slightly early... end up the machine printouts got problem... parts of the print r light n other parts r dark... the density was uneven... thgt i might be due to toner so i changed it... but the problem wasnt really solved althgt it was slightly better... but the customer just didnt like it... beri sian loh... the person who signed it n checked on the prints say ok... but her other colleague say still no gd... then end up i stayed back 1hr more to try fix it... but cus the store already close so i cant get any new parts...

tried adjusting all the internal values to make the printout sharper but still didnt work... then asked team leader... maybe it was due to one of the boards in the machine... so no choice 2molo gotta go back there again to change it... wat makes me sian is tat i wanted to change the board oso when i changed the toner... but store dont haf the stock... so i didnt change loh... then ask manager to help check if he got the spare anot... he told me the part no. was invalid... how can it be leh... i gave the store the same no. n they checked it was out of stock then now the manager say the part no. was invalid? tis dont tally loh... if the part no. wasnt rite in the 1st place y is it still in the part list?

hai~ sian... make me so headache...

wrong move~

finally bought a foldable trolley at bedok ytd... then used it 2day at work... but i already had a bad feeling once i got out of the lift at the ground level... pushing it wasn't hard... but lifting it everytime when there's a kerb or even just a short flight of stairs, it's even tiring then just carrying the bag alone... n every moment gotta make sure the road ahead is smooth enough for the trolley to pass if not i gotta lift it up again...

n i cant walk too fast either... the trolley might lose balance n give me a hard time trying to stable it... n moving around isn't as easy n relax as i thgh... although y shoulders r not aching 2day... but my hands r, after all the lifting n pulling... n cus my movement was quite slow 2day... it affected the no. of calls i could do too... only did 5 2day... at 1st i thgt it would only be hard to pull a trolley in n out of the mrt... but the harder part was to pull along everywhere i go... cus not all walk ways haf slopes...

really no much choice left liaoz... gotta try lighten somemore loads off my bag... cus i'm not gonna use the trolley anymore... hai~ wat a waste... spent $19 for it loh... hai~ sian loh can buy lots of other tingys with $19... hahahahaha :P

My Heart Skipped a Beat

i haf no idea y... but my heart skipped a beat 2day... i cant remember when n where it happened... but sure it's way after lunch time... while walking to another customer's office i saw someone along the road talking to her frend... there's notingy particular abt her until an image appeared in my head... tat gal look just like HER... well only her side view n the way she tied up her hair into a pony tail... i quickily turned n looked at her but realised it wasnt HER... but just at the moment when i looked at the gal the 2nd time, the thgt of tat person being HER made my heart skipped a beat...

y do i still feel tis way.............

Too Tired

came home late 2day... not tat it's unusual, but its becus i took the train home in the wrong direction... was so tired loh... went into tanjong pagar mrt, down the escalator n automatically i turned to the left... cus the downward escalator was on the left... then i didnt even notice i was standing at the wrong platform, which was going to boonlay... i even wait for another train to arrive cus the previous 1 was too crowded... i got onto the 2nd train n stood at the corner... till the train came out of the tunnel, then i realise how come 2day the ppl so little only... cus usually city hall alot ppl... then i look outside, it doesnt even look like kallang cus the station's wall was red in color...

it was then i knew i got onto the wrong train... no choice loh... got off at queenstown n take the other train back... if not for tis i would haf been home b4 7pm... y every evening after work i so tired... somemore 2day monday only... i slept quite alot last weekend leh... hai~ getting more n more tired of tis job... it shouldnt be tat way... i'm not enjoying tis job at all...

My Life is Meaningless

just woke up, n realised my parents had gone to play mahjong at uncle's place... their usual get together every weekend if possible, cus dad works 7days a week... had been sleeping throughout my weekend... cus i'm sooo exhausted after just working for 5 days... carrying tat heavy bag, walking all around raffles place, squeezing in between crowds every morning when i go the work n every evening when i come home...

so tired of it loh... i get soo frustrated everyday taking the mrt n carrying tat huge bag... didnt wanna separate the laptop from my bag into a laptop bag cus if i do, i wont haf enough hands to carry other spares or watever if the situation requires... n even would be worst when lunch time... the possibility of losing the laptop bag is so high if i were to leave it at the seat, carrying it along would mean only 1 hand to carry my food... i'm not gonna do stupid stunts for a meal, risking tipping over the food... n losing my belongings...

wanted to get a trolley to put my bag onto... but it would mean i'm gonna pull sometingy bulky along everywhere i go... which i tink wont do much good... i dont tink i would stay at tis job for more than a yr... tat would be torturing myself... which on the other hand i'm already torturing myself everyday by eating BK or Mac for lunch like 4 out of 5 days... y? cus its easier to find a seat at the fast food n rest there, n it's even cheaper eating at BK cus i got the coupons till 8 july, after tat i tink would switch back to Mac, cus BK normal price not cheap...

had stayed home for both my sat n sun... wanted to stop by at TM to check out the jap food fair over there, but too lazy to go n somemore ytd the sun was to hot loh... i already had enough of the sun from mon to fri... wanted to go swimming 2day oso... but tinking of all the crowd there just turns me off... then actually weihe had organised a bball game at tamp... but not much ppl can make it so cancel oso... hai~ missed the time when i was still staying in tamp, can go TM or CS cus just 3 bus stops away... go play bball wif them cus they all live in tamp...

then now... time 7.45pm, sunday 2nd july... heard the sound of 4 Apaches flying over bedok... its for the NDP tis yr bah... last yr dont haf cus they only came home tis yr... i miss the time when i was taking part in NDP 05... sooo fun even when i gotta rehearse on saturdays, but hanging out wif the ppl n doing the stuffs there just soo fun, even when it was tiring... hehe cus got to clock OT n take time off when i go back to base :P so fun loh doing ns in changi air base...

so glad to haf been posted to ams to meet all the ppl there, its more fun hanging out wif them... now ORD liaoz... cant get together tat often cus busy... how i wish i could sign on... but due to my ippt i cant... i missed the days when we all went to JB to shop n makan there... they r the ppl who taught me n brought my over to JB... if not till now i would still be telling ppl i nv travel overseas, not even to JB... hai~

i gonna start searching for another job now... too bad i didnt pass my english o-level in the 1st sitting... if not i could be interviewing for the cadet pilot already... when back to the website to check out the job application again... tis time i read again the requirements... then saw it was written there... in addition i need to haf at least 5 credits for 0-levels in 1 sitting including english, even if i got a diploma... hai~ there goes my dream of being a pilot...

2nd dream gone... all becus of o-levels...