My Life is Meaningless

just woke up, n realised my parents had gone to play mahjong at uncle's place... their usual get together every weekend if possible, cus dad works 7days a week... had been sleeping throughout my weekend... cus i'm sooo exhausted after just working for 5 days... carrying tat heavy bag, walking all around raffles place, squeezing in between crowds every morning when i go the work n every evening when i come home...

so tired of it loh... i get soo frustrated everyday taking the mrt n carrying tat huge bag... didnt wanna separate the laptop from my bag into a laptop bag cus if i do, i wont haf enough hands to carry other spares or watever if the situation requires... n even would be worst when lunch time... the possibility of losing the laptop bag is so high if i were to leave it at the seat, carrying it along would mean only 1 hand to carry my food... i'm not gonna do stupid stunts for a meal, risking tipping over the food... n losing my belongings...

wanted to get a trolley to put my bag onto... but it would mean i'm gonna pull sometingy bulky along everywhere i go... which i tink wont do much good... i dont tink i would stay at tis job for more than a yr... tat would be torturing myself... which on the other hand i'm already torturing myself everyday by eating BK or Mac for lunch like 4 out of 5 days... y? cus its easier to find a seat at the fast food n rest there, n it's even cheaper eating at BK cus i got the coupons till 8 july, after tat i tink would switch back to Mac, cus BK normal price not cheap...

had stayed home for both my sat n sun... wanted to stop by at TM to check out the jap food fair over there, but too lazy to go n somemore ytd the sun was to hot loh... i already had enough of the sun from mon to fri... wanted to go swimming 2day oso... but tinking of all the crowd there just turns me off... then actually weihe had organised a bball game at tamp... but not much ppl can make it so cancel oso... hai~ missed the time when i was still staying in tamp, can go TM or CS cus just 3 bus stops away... go play bball wif them cus they all live in tamp...

then now... time 7.45pm, sunday 2nd july... heard the sound of 4 Apaches flying over bedok... its for the NDP tis yr bah... last yr dont haf cus they only came home tis yr... i miss the time when i was taking part in NDP 05... sooo fun even when i gotta rehearse on saturdays, but hanging out wif the ppl n doing the stuffs there just soo fun, even when it was tiring... hehe cus got to clock OT n take time off when i go back to base :P so fun loh doing ns in changi air base...

so glad to haf been posted to ams to meet all the ppl there, its more fun hanging out wif them... now ORD liaoz... cant get together tat often cus busy... how i wish i could sign on... but due to my ippt i cant... i missed the days when we all went to JB to shop n makan there... they r the ppl who taught me n brought my over to JB... if not till now i would still be telling ppl i nv travel overseas, not even to JB... hai~

i gonna start searching for another job now... too bad i didnt pass my english o-level in the 1st sitting... if not i could be interviewing for the cadet pilot already... when back to the website to check out the job application again... tis time i read again the requirements... then saw it was written there... in addition i need to haf at least 5 credits for 0-levels in 1 sitting including english, even if i got a diploma... hai~ there goes my dream of being a pilot...

2nd dream gone... all becus of o-levels...