Fantasy vs Reality

so sian... at home notingy to do... ps2 oso play till sian liaoz cus no new games :P... go out oso dont know go where... somemore will perspire alot so rather not go out... but stay home can do wat sia... tv oso sometimes so borin... hai~

just now read another person's blog... wat was written in it really made me tink... am i living for myself or for my parents or for the person i love... well, the last one is definitely out of the question already, cus i cant find the heart to love anyone anymore... so, wat i'm doing now is probably living for my parents, if not then i might have already ended my life... different ppl have different tinking n ways to live their lifes, if everyone tinks the same n do tingys the same then life would never have been so complicated rite?

but then again, y must life be so complicated? so tat we could learn? make mistakes n try pick ourselves up n carry on? so wat would we gain in the end? experience? memories? but wat can we do with them? share it with others? who would wanna bother with u when their own life's already in a mess? so tat those would did badly in life could feel more miserable when they see ppl who were able to carry on n be successful after every stumble?

hai~ life... sometimes u love it sometimes u loathe it...

i'm getting fat again liaoz... hahahahaha