Slowly and inevitably...

... i'm beginning to lose my sense of direction... the loneliness just creeps in out of no where... kinda missed that few weeks... i think that was the 1st time in my life i smsed so much in a day, in a week... it was something i really looked forward to... before working everyday, during lunch time, after work... n during weekends...

but things r slightly different since then... knowing u r happy with him, with him by ur side... it kinda restricts me from smsing... i still do, i still wanna sms... but somehow i just don't know how to anymore... i'm happy for u... but at the same time i'm sad...

at work, kept looking at my hp to check if there were any missed sms... but all i see is my wallpaper... hai~~~

i'm human... i need to be loved too... i wan to be loved, cared for... be appreciated... somehow it's just a fantasy i could only dream of... the reality just makes me sad... as if there's nothing for me to look forward to everyday...