Monday, July 18, 2005

Diet: it makes u lose or gain weight?

i was shocked tis afternoon when i came back from camp... i thgt the recent exercises n controlling of my food intakes should make me lose some weight... i played in the inter-unit bball tournament then took ippt the next morning n after tat played batminton wif some frenz... kinda tiring... but was kinda happy cus i doing exercises n hoping to lose some weight... even started dieting on thurs nite... didnt eat rice for dinner... but mom bought hokkien mee for me... but i still ate only part of it... leaving like 20% of it in the box n threw it away...

then on fri i didnt even touch rice... ate only 2 pieces of cake after the game of batminton... n tats like all 4 the day... took yogurt for my dinner... drank some fruit juice drinks throughout the day... but on sat... due to NDP Rehearsal... we were given kfc for both lunch n dinner... i could haf chosen not to eat... but i didnt wanna faint... so ate for both lunch n dinner... wanted to take more than one serving but i was determined not to cus i really wanna lose weight... so i could only see my frenz ate their 2nd servings of kfc... i didnt mind at all... i was rather glad i didnt ate anymore than wat i should haf...

then sunday... ate noodles for breakfast n mom cooked dinner... i skipped lunch cus i was at home whole day... not much exercise so i dont wanna intake too much... i didnt take rice again... but mom cooked all fried food... i only took a small amount of it... n a bowl of pig-intestines soup... i considered all these tat i've eaten to be less than the amount i used to take in... no rice to days... n not 'cleaning up the plate' (finishing all the food on my plate)...

but still... i went on the weighing scale tis afternoon... i put on 2 more kgs... i tink if i didnt go on such a diet... i wouldnt haf put on extra weight... i'm so lost now... there maybe sometingy wrong wif my diet plan... but wats the use of going on a diet when it makes me fatter?...

i dont feel like losing anymore weight... going on anymore diets... u can say tat i dont haf determination or watever... or as chinese says: 'san fen zhong re du'... or maybe i would go for other alternaltives on losing weight... but for now i going to stop... wat i doing is not working...

i'm so demoralised now :(

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