"Bald" dream

man i had a weird n horrible dream loh... tink i was styling my hair or sometingy, then dont know y i went into a shop to find a comb... while i was combing my hair up n backwards, i suddenly notice the front part of my scalp was bald... no hair on top loh... only got hair on the side n back of my head, but top was bald... i was sooo scared sia...tinking how come i became bald... then i quickily try combing the hair from the side n back to the front to cover up the bald part... then i woke up... hahaha

shit man... how come i dream of such a tingy sia... pls dont let me go bald... already fat n nobody love, if go bald then no need to live liaoz... hahahahaha

i feel awful... had been going to the toilet for like 4 times already 2day... feel so dehydrated now... cus the 'tingys' tat came out weren't solid but liquid... i wonder wat went wrong... didnt take any diet pills mah, it felt as if i did n it's clearing the stuffs in my body... dont tink it's food poisoning... cus i didnt vomit mah... cant be i breath in dust n start having diarrhoea bah... i cant even feel relax when i'm at home... hai~

just now took the medicine for diarrhoea liaoz... but still have the feeling i'm gonna go for 1 more trip... hope 2moro everytingy would go back to normal for me... n 2moro is the 2nd day of renovation in my house... wonder would it be any more dusty... cus tink 2moro they gonna change the pipes only... so wont be tat bad i hope... hai~ gotta go rest liaoz...

the master bedroom toilet after all the hacking n drillings... no more toilet seats nor sink hahaha :P


the kitchen toilet in a mess... but the toilet bowl is still there woo... of cus cannot use anymore lah hahaha :P


our "new" portable temp toilet setup in the kitchen... equiped with a shower n a toilet bowl... so we can bath n "do business" at the same time... lol

since ytd i had been feeling beri sick... keep having runny nose whole afternoon at work... the 'liquid' from my nose even dripped down when i was servicing a copier at customer place... but lucky i 'caught ' it in time... felt so bad n disgusting... but i still gotta quickily finish the servicing n rush down to 7-11 to buy somemore packet tissue... cus i ran out of my 2 packets just after lunch...

but ytd quite relax... cus didnt haf much call... so i gotta sit down n relax... even got time to go MPH read books :P although i had not much calls, but i still feel rather tired... tink cus of the runny nose making me weak... when i reach home i cant stop sneezing loh... n each time i sneeze harder than the previous one... cant take it sia... n still gotta help cover up the living room n my parent's room... cus 2day is the start of our home renovation... or can say it's our blk's upgrading... but our unit only started 2day... it would last for 10days... excluding sundays... so i took 10 days leave... at 1st i thought i could finally relax from work... but then when they started the works in my home, the feeling of having someone in my home doing work just cant make me settle down... but i did doze off a few times... even with the drilling in the background...

mom oso took leave 2day... to look after the house with me... but all we could do is just say in my room n watch tv... cus my room is the only part of the house not affected... so now my room is stuffed with lots of tingys... like buckets, clothes hanger, vaccum cleaner etc...

till now i havent bath yet... cus gotta go down to the temp toilet downstairs to do watever... i'm ok with it... cus it's not much diff from ns... but only cus of other inconsiderate users who wet the entire cubicle n leave it as it is... hai~ wat to do... i still gotta go when i really got to... but just now yet... will be going to bath later in the evening... after the workers pack up n go...

hai~ till now i still cant stop coughing n my runny nose just cant stop dripping... but tink by 2moro should get better liaoz... just i still feel beri weak... especially my legs n neck... hai~ y i take leave then feel sick... sian...

was looking at other blogs when i saw tis petition to impost a harsher sentence on the cat killer in singapore... http://www.petitiononline.com/killer75/petition.html do go to the link to sign the petition if u love cats, n hope tat these kind of ppl get what they deserve after torturing animals... mine is at signature 4360 :P

"If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle on yourself. There's nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart..."

when i saw tis, i felt like laughing and crying at the same time... wanna laugh cus to me tis phrase came too late... felt so much like crying as love NEVER chooses to rest in anyone's heart, for my case...

who could be gentle to oneself after a rejection? if u r handsome, maybe... if u r rich, maybe... not me...

i had tis thought some days back... if given a chance to go back in time to change my life... maybe i shouldn't haf let anyone know tat i had feelings for HER... then maybe, just maybe tingys wrong get out of hand till the state i'm in rite now... or i should've just given up back then... n go for the other one... well, all i can say is timing was all wrong... cus only during chem lessons then i start noticing her...

anyway... all these days i kept on tinking until sometimes it hurts in the heart... already 24... n not even once a relationship... i going into a state of blocking n refusing to love... i cant find any ways to stop it... cus everytingy, everyone around me is forcing me into tat state of mind...

so sick of life~

the weather is so nice tis weekend... so cloudy n windy... abit of rain... but ytd sky was so dark near the evening tat i cant go down to play bball... so thgt of going down tis morning... but over slept till 10am... but the weather still beri nice... no sunshine at all, n it's not even gonna rain... but now got nice shows on the tv... so was tinking maybe after the shows then go down play... but hope later the weather still so nice... just dont suddenly rain can liaoz lol...

n finally... 3 more days till the IMF tingy end... n 5 more days till the start of my leave, n the start of my home's renovation... so fast finally can get a rest from all those heavy carrying on my shoulders...