IPPT

woke up early tis morning... hehe usually would sleep as much as possible on sundays... but 2day gotta drag myself off the bed at 8am... gotta go to tampines safra for my 1st IPPT attempt since i ORD last yr... damn y must my bday gotta fall on april n not end of the yr... then can relax more... hahaha :P

anyway... was instructed to be there 15mins in advance... but when i got there the gym wasnt even oopen yet... so i sat down n watch ppl playing squash... i find the sport stupid, no offence ah... but 2 ppl locked up in a room trying to hit the same small rubber ball... i just dont see the point of the game... hahaha :P

anyway... back to the IPPT... hmm can see tat most ppl going safra for IPPT normally cant pass it :P i'm one of them oso lah hahaha... took all 4 static stations in the batminton hall... ran the shuttle run on the mat... it's like so restricted loh, scare if the foot miss the mat n step on the hall i might slip, but it wasnt tat bad lah... didnt slip, but still fail tat station but 0.1sec need 10.7sec to pass... hahaha

sian... SBJ only jump 189, chip-up zero-warrior as usual... then the standard for sit ups really strict sia... shoulder must touch ground, albow touch knee, if not no count hahaha... 1st time i had trouble doing sit ups... last time i could do close to 40... 2day only 33 counts...

now the worst part... 2.4km on treadmil... i've always thgt it would be much easier to run stationary on treadmils compared to the on the road or running track... but iwas sooo wrong... the treadmil was set at a speed tat would make u get a pass... so if u slow down the speed u would fail the test, unless u increase more in the later stage...

i started out ok... trying to adjust to the speed, but when it was constant... my body kept swaying left n right, front n back... like gonna loose my balance, i tried to continue but my legs n mind told me to stop, not my heart... cus i could realise i was dragging my feet on the treadmil which means i could trip n fall any moment... so no choice, i signal to the PTI i cant take it n stopped the test... 1st time sia, i drop out of a IPPT test... last time no matter wat i would finish the test even if i knew i failed it... but 2day i just cant take it on the treadmil... i dont haf wat it takes to keep a constant speed... but how? i dont tink i could go to the camps for IPPT after work cus i would be extremely tired after a day of work... tink just gotta try go running myself more often liaoz... if not really cannot make it...

hai~ 2molo gotta work again... then gotta attend a re-call somemore, stupid sia... went to the customer last friday morning n thgt i solved the problem, cus they complaint lines n the feeder not working... go there test the feeder, the bearing came off tat's y the rollers not feeder the paper, then checked the prints internally n from feeder oso no lines... so i thgt notingy wrong n left... somehow in the evening when abt to go home, got a msg from the controller saying the 1st call on monday would be a re-call of friday morning's call... cus the lines still there, when print doubleside... shit, next time must check double side... sian~

would there be any work out there tat wont make ppl feel so tired after everyday of work? go home still gotta do paper work... then end up only paid less than 1.5k/mth hai~

BAD

i did a beri beri bad tingy 2day... pls forgive me... i didnt meant it... i'm sorry

it was after lunch... took a bus from fuji xerox tower to peninsula plaza... when i board the bus it was empty... n its those new bus loh, like not much in singapore tat r of those design one... quite spacious... so i sat on a single seat, but it was those meant for old or pregnant ppl... i thgt since it's gonna be a short journey n like there's no ppl in the bus so i sat on it loh...

then i received a msg asking me to call the customer cus they r chasing already, y so late still no one go service their machine... so i call them loh... but just then while i was on the phone wif the customer... i really didnt notice an old lady boarding the bus... serious!! then a guy infront of me saw the old lady n gave up his seat... which was one of those 'green' seats too lah... but seeing tat guy doing tat just makes me feel sooooo bad... i felt like those other ppl who hog on the seats eventhough they might haf seen other ppl who need the seat more than them... i felt so bad loh... hai~

but then at the next stop... more ppl getting on... n i saw a lady like abit pregnant lah... but kinda unlikely for her age loh... anyway i was feeling so bad already, so i just stood up n gave her my seat... like hoping to make amends for not giving up my seat for the old lady... hearing the lady saying 'thank you' just made me felt slightly better...

hai~ y didnt i saw tat old lady...

new skin

wanted to change a skin few weeks ago... but either i forgotten or i'm too tired to find n edit one... then just now i went searching for one... n i found tis... the words r so touching, meaningful... just how i'm feeling... abit scary though :P

No cure for me...

as usual... carried a big bag along to work everyday... 2day went quite well... no call at 1st till abt 9am plus... then 2 calls in the same building but different levels... but 1 mishap, peeled a tiny piece of skin off from my finger even b4 i started the 1st call, kana cut by my own pouch... then kept bleeding... lucky it stopped after awhile, if not the entire customer's machine will be covered wif my blood hahaha :P

then after the 3rd call, i went to boat quay's Mac for lunch again... haha if i keep on going to fastfood 4 lunch... i'm gonna get fatter liaoz... somemore my IPPT is tis saturday... now here's the main story...

normal meal at Mac, after finishing i took out some documents n did some paper work b4 going for the 4th call... then i saw a grp of office ladies settling down... it's normal wat, lunchtime in raffles area, yes, but till i notice sometingy... one of them looked soooo much like HER, only abit slimmer n slightly taller :P those eyes, tat smile, even the voice... overheard her asking her frenz where the toilet was in the Mac cus she wanna wash hands :P then i thgt to myself, SHE doesnt haf a sister bah? does SHE? dont remember hearing SHE has one loh...

seriously, i'm sick i tink... no cure already... nowadays kept tinking... but when i nv tink of HER, i see someone like HER...

Fact: cant be wif, can only tink of...

can i for once haf sometingy i wan the easy way? y must everytingy be in the hard way?

received a testimonial from a frend recently... was kinda stanned tat he would write 1... hahaha cus its really rare for him to do such kinda tingy... but anyway must tank him... haha but he thought too highly of me already... i'm not all gd when i'm not in the mood :P nowadays more worst... kept feeling moody everytime after work... cus too tired already...

just now went swimming at bedok swimming complex... not much ppl as i thgt it would be... but still there's a crowd... at 1st i was tinking whether i could do 20laps in 1hr... but not even half way through i'm already slowing down... then towards the end then i started swimming faster abit... now back home feeling kinda tired... tink i over did it a little bit :P

few days back... actually on fri... i kinda realised tat i'm afraid of opening up 2 ppl especially gals... or kinda dont like toking 2 ppl at all... well maybe becus me n my colleagues dont haf any topics in common we could tok abt, except work... which is like so boring...

n if u ask me y i'm afraid of opening up... save it, i dont even know the answer myself either hahaha :P maybe becus i'm afraid of being laugh at, being said i'm a bore, n even afraid of being hurt... toking abt hurt... tink i would remain single from now on... dont haf to tink/care soo much anymore... i dont tink i could get over the past, tink i'm still afraid of being turned down... anyway single oso not tat bad... hahaha

call me weak if u want to, i dont care... i just cant take it anymore, the stress i'm taking in is unbearable, 2day is the worst... after the last call on the way to the mrt i almost cried out... but i just hold on to the tears, n swallow them back in... my head hurts so much... y am i having so much stress?

wanna fix the machine but the parts needed no stock... so everytime i encounter tis i try to modify the parts so it could work again... end up its not the way... i should haf inform the manager so he could help to look for the parts elsewhere... so wat i did it useless loh... but no stock n want me to do the job fast, how is it possible? n everytime no stock no stock... then wat for is there a service department in fuji xerox? when the customer call for service n we cant fix the machine cus no stock... fucked up system... i'm new n already stressing over just ONE model of machine... there r still soo many other machines i need to learn... i cant imagine the amount of stress when i am trained in other models...

i cant do it anymore... gonna start looking for jobs now...

i'm so tired, mentally... really need to let off some stress... if not i would go crazy... feel so much like crying but the tears wont come out...

2day sunday... actually was suppose to go swim wif rudy tis afternoon... but due to the rain, it was cancelled... n i stayed home whole day... watching tv n sleeping... took a short nap at abt 3pm... then woke up abt 4pm plus n when back to slp again... cus there's just notingy to do n notingy to watch... didnt even feel like playing games, cus i know after few mins of playing i would get tired of the game... sometingys bothering me i know... but i'm just not sure wat...

went tampines again tis evening after dinner... went there to buy my new bag... the one i having cant let me put my laptop in together wif my other stuffs, cus it would surely rip open... too heavy liaoz... so went CS Metro to get a new one... managed to squeeze everytingy including my laptop into it... feels kinda heavy but at least better than the old one... just hope tis one can last me, n hope it wont give way...

nowadays no matter where i go where i travel... i kept tinking n tinking... tinking abt life, work, love, y can some ppl live so happy n others so sad? y some can find love so easily n others just doesnt haf the fate... y some dont haf to work so hard n money would keep pouring in for them, while others haf to work 24/7 just to earn enough to pay for their home...

yes would ppl say all these r challenges... tests... but for fuck? u wan challenges n tests u go through them urselves... leave me alone...