Hai~ my PC monitor is dying... poor tingy has been with me for abt a decade already hahaha... moved with me from our 1st home in bedok to tampines... then back here to bedok again... its time i get a new set of PC... this loyal PC of mine, their parts r already out-dated :P but yet serving me well hahahaha :P no matter wat i will still continue using it, till it no longer functions... the monitor is already flickering abit... n shadows r appearing at the corners... just hope it will last till i get a job... cause my resume is still in it... if it die off now i would have to get a new one or even a 2nd-handed from cash converter, which i dont think will last long either... haha

But i cant buy a new PC yet... the earliest i could buy one would be after i get a job n receive my 2nd pay... cause my monthly expenses now is abt $500... taking tat i might get a pay of over $1000, $500 for use n the rest for the PC... so at least the 2nd pay then i could get one... maybe i would buy a monitor 1st... n the rest of it later on... cause i still gotta give allowances to my parents... well, i hope i could give them... :P

Dear monitor... please bear with me for another 3 months...

Finally i've finish writing out my resume... but i'll only start sending them next week... cause i havent put it into softcopy... its so hard to write a resume man... dont know wat to put in it... kinda regret y i didnt do well in my O-levels... if i could pass my geography, chemistry n english at one go i could have gone into hospitality management in TP n maybe look for F&B job now... but i might not be in RSAF for my NS... hehehe so there r good n bad views to all these...

Now just hope i would get a satisfying job as an engineer in the near future... else i might go back NTUC be storeman again muahahaha :P hope i could survive for the rest of my years... should be abit more easy cause would only be supporting my parents n myself... wont be looking forward to start my own family... cause tats my fate...

Hai~ just now went bedok town park for a jog... wanna try see how's my 2.4km timing, now tat i've lost a few kgs... but then it was worst than i thgt it would be... i took 14.20mins to run the 2.4km... thgt i could be faster than tat... not sure y i'm still so slow... maybe cause of the slight up hills in the park... although they r small but the effect is too much when i'm running... hai~ still not used to running 2.4km... tried to do chin ups too... but still cant even break the zero... now stomache muscles kinda aching... think yesterday do too much push ups strained my stomache muscles hehehe :P arm oso abit aching... think i did abt 100 push ups within 2hrs... cause was doing it while playing winning eleven 9... telling myself before every match do 20 push ups n if let in one goal i would do another 10, 10 more for lost n 5 for a draw... haha i oso lost count how many matches i played...

hai~ hope my back skin would peel off faster... so i could go swimming again... started peeling off 2 days ago after i got sun burnt from the last swim... now i never go swim like beri sian... nothingy much more to do liaoz... except running... hahaha :P

SIANSATION~

Nowadays i keep waking up after 12noon... never earlier than tat :P cause i've been staying up late watching tv n playing games... really must change this habit already... else gonna be hard for me after i ORD... only 5 more weeks till i ORD... i have yet to find a job... wonder if i could find one... gonna be broke again... went swimming again today at abt 3pm... on the way there i kept thinking but my life... feel kinda worthless... so fat n not much skills... only thingy i'm good at is spending $$... hai~

Stopped by the ATM to check on my savings... not much left for me this month... abt $40 left n i haben pay my hp bill yet... althgh it's only $27... gotta wait till my last pay day... just hope i can survive after i ORD... if i can pass my ippt i would sure sign on with RSAF... but just too bad...

I wanna takes thingys easy... just wanna relax... but keep thinking abt my future makes me headache... sometimes i wonder why are all people working day and night just to make a living... then years later we just die or even just wait to die... sometimes i feel the life or an animal is better than a human...

Went to Giant Supermarket after swimming... wanted to see if the thingys there are cheaper than NTUC... hehe they're not... NTUC sells at a lower price n sometimes they got on sale items too... but the thingys nowadays are getting more n more expensive... everytime i would spend near $20 just to buy ham, bread, veggies, juices, n other essentials... think i spent nearly $100 this month in NTUC hahaha :P going on a diet could be expensive too...

Hai~ should really start writing my resume tomorrow n search for a temp part time job... it's rather boring staying home everyday... only sometimes go swimming n jogging... but nothingy much interesting to do... without $$ it's hard to find pleasure...

Wah sai~ today super tiring sia... just came home from a swim at bedok swimming complex... went there abt 1145... i walked from my house to the swimming complex... abt 30mins plus lah... nowadays i haven't been taking the bus... unless i'm going out with frenz or watever... otherwise i would just walk... even only just going 2 library to return book i oso walk there :P hehe trying 2 lose weight lah no choice... hehe then only take lift when i'm going down... coming back home i would use the stairs... this is my 1st time since i moved to this blk... tat i've used the stairs to reach my home hehehe :P been doing all these for the past 3weeks liaoz... luckily got some results ar... if not i sure cry hahaha :P work so hard but notingy in return...

Anyway... back to the pool... reach there abt 1220 liaoz... not much ppl swimming cus most of them sun tanning... really hot sia today... after few days of continuous rain... finally today the clouds gave way to the sun hehehe :P and because the weather's so hot... it makes the water in the pool feel really cold when i enter it... woo hoo almost cannot tahan...then swim 1st lap only... i find it weird... having abit of trouble controlling my breathe n movements... so i stopped n rest awhile before continuing... hehe maybe cause the water too cold... cant adapt to it tat quickily...

Hehehe n only today then i realised tat i spent abt 1hr just to finish 20 laps... how can i be tat slow sia... hahaha maybe body mass too big... then too much resistence to water... harder to move in water... LOL~ then today my eyes oso eat quite alot of "ice cream" :P saw 2 malay gals wearing bikinis sun tanning... hmm figure quite good woo :P hehehe then beri hard 2 concentrate in swimming LOL~

Ytd went jogging in bedok reservoir... was suppose to meet jianguang n jog together... but he fly me aeroplane... he did sms me saying tampines area gonna rain soon... but it was too late... i was already out of my house... n i nv bring hp along for run... so i waited there for half an hour before i start jogging myself...

It's rather windy jogging around the reservoir... should go there more often now... but one tingy bad abt it is the small stones on the pavement... they keep entering my shoes... then hard 2 run... i almost kana blisters oso... 1st time after sooo many runs at other places... almost kana blisters... now just gotta wait awhile for the leg to heal abit before starting to run again... meanwhile just gotta keep swimming... hehehe :P

Ohh yah... i ran into syed from 4B while jogging at the reservoir ytd... he just came back from work n came down for a jog... he now working for ministry of environment... tink is part time... cant remember properly... said abt $5plus per hr... quite gd job... he just ORD last month n got a job already... i still having difficulty finding one... hai~ just hope i would find one soon... time is not a luxury for me...

Recall, recall~

Hahaha... thought tat there would be a recall 2day, end up i'm just scaring myself... cause there wasn't one... but next week might be recalled... so, i stayed at home the whole 1st half of 2day... didnt even dare to go TP for a swim in the morning... scare later hp ring but i'm in the pool then die... hahaha so 2molo then go swim bah... provided i could wake up :P

Went out for movie at 5pm with weihe, his gf, junchao, jianguang n vincent at marina square... watched harry potter, show ok lah... the plot always the same... enemy only shows his face near the end of the show hahaha :P before tat we went for dinner... had fast food... hai~ i broke fast, i ate fried food for the 1st time... but lucky my weight didnt increase... man the burger we ate was damn HUGE... forgot wat the name of the restaurant was already but it's located in the 1st level near the 7-11... i ate the combo meal "famous star" it was really big sia... but quite nice... maybe becus i long time never eat fast food :P but it was really filling... tink my appetite became smaller again... last time i eat fast food i was never tat full... now just one HUGE burger is making me full... or maybe it's just becus the burger was big... hahaha :P

After the movie weihe even wanted to go bedok Blk85 for supper, but we all quite full liaoz so we scraped tat idea... n went home... on the way home tink i saw jenny, frend from TP... only knew her abit when doing fyp in the same lab... didnt say hi cause scare it's the wrong person hahaha besides me dont know her tat much...

Was quite happy 2day actually... i finally could fit into my old T-shirt again... it was a T-shirt i won from a starhub SCV contest... hehe the contest was abt italian serieA soccer... the T-shirt's size is XL... but it looks more like L on the outside... i could only fit into it when i 1st POP from Tekong... but now i can fit into it again... really beri happy loh... so i will stick to my diet for 2 more weeks... n see wat happens then :P hehe Yippee!!

Nearing the end of my 2nd week of diet plan :P quite happy loh... i finally broke the 90kg mark again haha now me weight is 89kg... didnt do much exercise this week... cause went for 2 job interviews n also the weather not beri good for outdoor exercise... rained a few times when i wanted to go run or swim... end up i didnt hehe :P but still i lost abt 2kgs this whole week... did go down to play basketball... alone lah hehe... only practised shooting for abt 30mins plus then it was gonna rain so went back home... i still suck at close range shots... 3 points still ok hehehe :P

So... abt those 2 interviews... one was on the fast food i talked abt in my previous entry in my blog... turned out they didnt call me after i told them i can only start after december n i cant work on saturdays... cause they said cannot take off on weekends... tink they feel i not right for the jobby... so didnt re-contact me...

Now the 2nd jobby... hahaha... another marketing job again!! i know myself, i'm not the kind of person suitable for marketing... need good communication skills... which i am lack of... said they would put me through courses n exams, after which then i could become sort of a "leader" for others... leading my own group of men... then only one tingy came into my mind when the interviewer told me these tingys... i'm not a leader, i'm a follower... i know myself quite well, wat i can do or wat i am incapable of... they told me to tink it through... cause they need ppl who have completed NS n will be committed... they even arranged a 2nd interview for me the next day... but i turned it down... i know i wont be gd enough to be in marketing...

Hai~ 2 interviews, 2 disappointments... i should really stick to my own diploma... should search for jobby in engineering line... instead of F&B or storeman :P hehehe... but i gotta start writing my resume before i could start looking for a job... must start 2 write tomorrow...