thgt rudy wanted to move house 2day... was waiting for his call ytd n 2day... still no news from him... maybe he's moving 2molo... or maybe he already moved without us helping... just gotta wait n see if he calls... but he did ask me for help... wondered why no confirmation from him... hmmm???

anyway kenny came 2day n we played winning eleven 9 at my place... damn lost to him few times... haha thgt i could win him... but hey... u win some u lose some hehe... somemore the new winning eleven 9 kinda hard 2 play... all the moves n shooting skill abit diff... harder to score... n we played nba2005 oso... sian~ lose to him in real life then now in game oso lose out in nba haha... i really suck at basketball... thgt i still ok with it... but hai~ i'm rather bad at it :P still... i will continue to play it... cus i suck more at soccer... hahaha at least my hands work better than my feet :P

did some dusting on my desk 2day... really beri dusty loh... but after tat i tink i breathe in some dust... now having runny nose... really feeling sick loh... like half of my energy is drained out... n further more this runny nose cant stop... n the 'fluid' is really watery loh... it would just drip down all of a sudden... cant even react fast enough... used up quite alot of tissues already... hope it would get better 2molo...

maybe it's oso becus of lack of sleep tat i'm falling sick... cus ytd i stayed up whole nite watching 2 dvds... till this morning 5am plus... did sleep afterwards... n woke up at 1pm this afternoon hahaha :P wanted to continue watch somemore dvds... but tink gotta rest liaoz... if not 2molo worst... scare later fever then beri sian liaoz :P

hai~ it's always these moments when i start thinking again... how nice it would be if there's someone to care abt me when i fall sick... hmm... wonder if that would ever happen on me... trying not to think too much nowadays... cus i myself cant even find a perfect solution to the problem... a part of me wanna be with her... the other part kept telling me it's better off not to bother her... cus wat i am now is not worthy to be with her... but still... hai~

then somemore it seems like it's back to the past... chatting online one question just one simple answer... notingy more... maybe its me tinking too much... or she's trying to avoid conversation... so i didnt try to make any either... or maybe she's too tired n busy with work n study... but a simple 'Hi' would be sufficient to brighten up my day...

should just try not to tink too much... :P

changed background song of my blog

i over heard this song on the tv... when they were showing making of jay zhou's "wu yu lun bi" concert... he was singing this song with landy, a beri sentimental song... was immediately attracted to it when i 1st heard it... listen to the words... :P

Sis came home 2day... brought back some snacks... this is a Loacker Mini chocolate wafer... smaller than my palm woo hehe :P then she n mom oso made soon kuay... hehe they kinda failed cus it's their 1st try :P but i tink it's still quite ok... only the skin abit thicker than it should have been... mom oso cooked mee goreng 2day... long time nv eat liaoz... normally only chinese new year then she would cook... cus it's too much work to cook mee goreng liaoz... lor mee oso beri hard to prepare... but the results of both mee r great... :P should learn how 2 cook then next time can cook for tat special one :P haha

bro n sis-in-law oso came home tis afternoon... for mom's mee goreng :P he told me he just bought a new car... n would arrive next weekend... he bought a lancer... again haha this time it's white color... then said he wanted 2 give me a watch too... althgh i nv wear one... he still insist of giving it to me... cus he just bought a new watch too haha so he got too much watch liaoz... decided to give me one... actually i wanted to get a watch... but i need those tat have stopwatches in them... not those analog ones... cus i wanna use it to clock my running... anyway now he's giving me one analog watch... tink it's a tag heuer... maybe i'll keep it 1st... till i start working or go out then wear... still in NS i dont wanna watch such an expensive watch... he said maybe he would give it to me 2molo cus i doing PM shift 2molo... changed shift wif paw on mon n tues... then back 2 hq on wed till fri... maybe try 2 do some clearance 1st...

Finally bought Fish Leong's new album: "si lu - tong wang ai de lu tu" comes with 2006 calendar

had been a listening ear to some of my frenz past few years... tried to helped out whenever i could... but mostly could just advice them... sometimes i just wish someone could give me advices... tok to me... listen to me... console me... i'm having such a headache keeping my feelings inside me... there's nowhere i could express them...

just feel like crying... hope all the hurt, saddness n pain would just go away :'(

just finish my last duty in the airfield at CABeast... from next week onwards i'll be going back to HQ at CABwest to start clearing my leave n off :P yeah... ORDing soon liaoz... somemore on x'mas eve hehe :P just in time to celebrate together with x'mas :P

but going back HQ would be beri sian... now need to wear no.3 to work, cant wear PT kit anymore unless got ippt or sqn run for the day... so sian... then some ppl in HQ oso beri hard to work with... always creating troubles for ppl... making life hard for everyone... hai~ cant there just be peace? :P

but i wont bother abt it too much liaoz cus i'm leaving soon :P anyway next time when i go out work would probably meet the same kind of situation... jut gotta try to avoid unnecessary conflicts with ppl at work... would make my life easier :P

hai~ just hope i would be able to find a job after i ORD... gotta start looking for one rite now... n gotta start writing my resume n such... 'Ti Gong Bo Bi' i can find a jobby :P hehe

really gonna miss those happy n unforgetable moments working in the runway... in the airfield section of CAB Airfield Maintenance Squadron... hahahaha who am i kidding... i'm more happy to ORD n start working :P

A Recurring Dream~

Nowadays i had been having this strange dream... everytime i had it, it's the same... but with different scenarios... like one episode after another... i had no idea why i'm having this kinda dreamz man... maybe too much violent movies like final destination 1 n 2 :P

It goes like this

I was on a highway flyover... then suddenly this car came straight at me... trying to kill me, purposely... but everytime i managed to escape death... then last nite it was abit different... with more characters in my dream... but none i knew... this time i was still on the highway flyover... but the car was rushing to me from behind... i was knocked off the road n crashed... i got out n tried to give chase... but it came back for me... somehow i got into a car from out of nowhere n we went head on... we didnt die... suddenly i was top of a truck with someone... like he was my sidekick or sometingy... then the mysterious car was chasing behind... ramming the truck... we tried to hang on but the guy i was with fell n i held on to him... the rest cant really recall back... but then i woke up...

kinda weird having this dream... n i felt dizzy when i woke up after the dream this morning... wonder if i would have it again... cus till now i still not sure y a car was trying to kill me in my dream...